Xin ^ Xin wisHEs

2006-04-03T21:35:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile...AGAIN.. migod.. why am i driftin so far from my precious blog?

Days have been fine..watched big momma2 at ogdc cinema yesterday wif some friends, hey stels, how abt persuading jason and went to catch a movie some time? =)

Everyday of last week have been goin out.. so tiring.. but fun tho.. ehe. today also alright lar.. tho it's just tea. =)

spent alot money tho.. bought 4 clothes and a mag, dear got me another mag and transparent contact lens whn he's at miri on sat. keke. so happy see my clothes.. wanna wear them like.. ASAP.. but have to wait dear to go shop retrieve it for me =( cuz i put it on deposit.. haikz. sad ah..

2006-03-24T19:40:00.000-08:00

Day was good!=D

Woke up ard 9 30am lerhs, get ready and go out meet up with dear. hehes. spend much quality time norh.

Was so sinful nowadays.. keep on putting foods into my mouth! =( hab kfc for lunch.. well.. maybe for you slim people nth la.. but me hab 3 piece chicken, 1 french fries, cheezy wedges and popcorn chicken. but tasty thou.. i miss kfc terribly and i wanna hab kfc again tomoro! sinning.. =s

Spend the noon din do anything much lerh, helped dear changed his blogskin.. since his images lost liao.. then we dl songs together. hehe. it's like so darn MUCH MUCH MUCH more faster than at home. haikz.. felt so sad. =( dl like.. 10 songs? by the Dj, nt naming the Dj tho, cuz it's btw us.. and i found it! tee hee! oh yeah..where am i.. dl 10 songs from my com.. dunno use how much sweat..1 song is like 1 hr+ and dl for so many days.. but HE lehh.. found even more of it and dl another like..10 in 1 hr time.. and from various other Dj's too.. cheww.. my hardwork sOoOooo wasted =(

Got drinks cuz i'm thirsty.. and NOW.. i'm craving another ribena.. c'mon la.. haikz.

Mommy came to pickd me up at 5 30 liddat lor.. and then go order my bday cake.. hehe! my beloved fruit cocktail cake!!!!woot~~~~

2006-03-23T23:30:00.000-08:00

Day was good! tho abit dissapointing =( but nvm larhs.

Woke up ard 9am ba, dressed, and play com til 10 am and head to miri. hehes. wait my bro and dad wait till me also grrr...-.-

Nothing catches my eye for the whole day! haikz. Went to imperial first. nothing catches my eye except roger yong collections. but well..thinkin myself wear skirt kinda abit err.. so din get anythin in de end =( and a pair of jeans at another shop. but too tight..so din get it lorhs!

Collected my coloured contact lens too! kekes. but hor.. hais..

Hab Jawa mee.. haha. absolute fab!!! <33

After having my jawa mee my dad decided to go 2020 tt area ba..went to ba gu teh cafe and THEY have their lunch. and me? my SECOND lunch nia worh. hahas. had ba gu teh, mango pudding, and herbal egg. mango puddin is Fab!! absolute fab. ordered two bowls tim -.- till in the end abit tummy ache ba.. =s herbal egg kinda nice too! but nt as nice as KL de lorh. miss it wor. =(

After havin lunch, boy (my bro) wanna go rent his comics agn.. which is just beside the ba gu teh cafe larh..connected agn =x saw novels there too! got sweet valley and love stories ba.. dad thought i've outgrown sweet valley novels ler, but me dun buy anymore dun mean i stop lurvin them ma.. hehes.

Headed to Servay wif mommy after tt..nothing to buy larh! but got fasio products =D one make up remover and another is a lipgloss.. <33 the colour =P best thing about buying? other people pay for ur shoppin. hahahas! si beh happy neh.

Ask dad a vry toopid ques leh.. ' papa, actually leh..the cake i want most.. is the choco mud cake from san fransisco coffee..can i hab tt for my bday cake' he also stunned.. say me sot.. come to miri on sun just to take ur cake ah nw.. hahas!

After tt go parkson o.. dun buy anythin ler..except a cd.. haikz. nth catches my eye lorh. actually hab la..the ah po shoes at vincci there.. but i dun wear skirts.. oh well..

Din stay long at parkson ler, coz no one hab anything they wants. still hab time so head to boulevard lor. got two shoes there! hehe. nice nice! =D and another lipgloss from cosway. haha.

Hab dinner at Michael steamboat! Absolutely my fave!!!!!!!!!!!!! had so much there, ate like a pig.. kena dad scold leh.. girl eat like what. hahas.

Zzzz.. tired neh.. goin Zz soon. after puttin all the thingies dear wants in the pendriv.. gdnyt everyone! muacks!

suddenly remember..

TOMOLO IS PAPA BDAY AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! hOWWWW..... nice not.. me and my dad bday is only 2 days from each other! hehes. actually got another tang jie on 25 lah.. so make it three of us in a row =D but the tang jie in canada.. so no nid say .keke..

2006-03-21T13:51:00.000-08:00

Movie night lasnyt! =P blerkz.

After reachin home from tea about 4pm+ , showered, sit in front of com and then talkd with dear till about 8pm+ and khang came and pickd me up..

Thought goin to amy and emma's hse str8 away ma.. but who noes le.. they wanna go gerai first. i wear so thick hor! =s ordered sugarcane juice nia.. so lose to miri 1.. haha.

After tt to their hse and decided watch the dunno-wat-name new movie kung fu smth with cecelia starring in it. hehe. nice movie.. hilarious! =) have fun thruout. hehes.

Kana laffed coz i been to toilet like..three times durin the movie? haha..

2006-03-20T09:56:00.000-08:00

Wua.. i now then realised me almost 1 month no blog wor! so unlike me can! well.. if stels, vonnie and chow mei no remind me i totally forgot tim!! sowwie arh girls.. -.- pai seh.

Hm.. how am i these days leh.. can say more stable sia. yeap. that's the word =)

Last wed went to miri lerh.. happi=D coz first time go with dear together and not meetin up at miri. tee hee. went pretty early norh, like..5 30 am wor. Why so early!!! coz makong parents have to fly off to kl mornin flight. hehes. so pretty sleepy.

Went for breakfast at 2020.. so happi. coz cn eat my zhu chang fen leh! then went airport lor. dear got me this cute cute bear chocolate thingie.. actually dun meant for him to buy la.. just said he dun buy sweet thingies for me.. haha.. and got some candies there.

After sendin them to airport, makong and dear went to see car parts lor. bored le. for me.. haha. then went to wher arh.. i think imperial wor.. shopped shopped.

My two wishlists are crossed off..
1 . coloured contacts lens
2 . loreal true match foundation

haha. bad been wantin these for quite awhile liaohs.. all these wants cannot be met if dear dun buy for me. haha. dear got alot of thingies tt i wanted wor..

After tt we went to curtin picked up silver norh.. hehe. first time been to curtin. called up jie bt she in clas.. boo.. after tt we went to boulevard lor.. gai gai for while.. din get anythin tho.. haha. nothing catches my eyes lerh. but really syng lor.. din take neoprints with dear.. haiks. really syng.

Went to the topest floor and silver hab her food and jie came to find me! hehe. so happi. tok tok awhile..then we all left nia.. send silver back to curtin. suppsed to go parkson aftr tt ba.. but smhow..the place makong wash car is near imperial '.' and i dun wna walk so far leh.

Went back to imperial and to paul and jennifer saloon and wash my hair.. wua lan.. exp like wat hor.. wash hair need $30.. haha..understandable..they use the kretasase brand.. and askd for a trim..and she chop off my hair like.. THREE damn inches! haiks.. sad. bt nvm tho..

Went to micheal steamboat for dinner.. so nice!!!! can really never get enough of it.. dear and makong so happily drinkin beer too.. haiks. me now no more like all these liao.. geez.. keep gam beh agn.. tmd!!!

went back loo.. before tt went to jie´s hse get few stuffs.. mommy´s books and family pics.. tee hees. so happi dear spend some time at back seat with me wor.. go home..bathed and wait dear call mie.. talkd awhile..and both us went to bed lor..

Yesterday also another fun day wor. hehe. makong and alvin came to pickd me up at ard 3pm.. and go to kfc have my zinger burger at my request! eheh.. happi.. aftr tt me wanna go alice and micheal see clothes ma..so many nice de o ..=( but bo lui..cannot buy.. haiks..

Ngam when walkd down amy called liao.. and then meet up the rest.. emma, amy, adrain, choi, ivan at marilyn.. hehe. was there vry long lor.. talking and pictures sessions neh. keke. quite many pictures.. hopefully i can get them. hehe

After tt we all pei makong to fix his hp. and i suggest if we all wanna steamboat..coz i wan it la =D then they all vry hyper leh.. so its a ON!! keke. but they said steamboat at home..ok also.. hehe. we all went soon lee shoppin for materials..fun fun. haha. makong took a clown hat and put on my head askd alvin take a pic of me. haha.. funny sia.

Bought alot of foods leh.. and then go makong hse prepare lor. hehe. cut the meat and so on..fun fun..steamboat also veli nice.. hehe.. eat till so full!! but once reach home tummy ache run toilet '.' haiks.

talkd with dear ..till two am!! haha. happy.. and went to bed. today after dear´s mornin call..could´nt fall back asleep tho..haiks..

2006-02-27T19:55:00.000-08:00

Total miracle leh.

Hate raisins to the max! raisins in my rice, raisins in my cake..totally won't put it in my mouth anymore..hate raisins til the point ee pluck raisins out of the cake so i can enjoy my cake.

A few days ago, i dreamt of me loving those yellow raisins, tho i could'nt remmeber the exact details of my dream, but this much i remember and told my mom the next day i woke up..

A few minutes ago, i'm somehow muchin on my mom's raisins and was so engrossed in the catalogue tt i dun notice anytin till mommy say.. "since when u started eatin raisins?"

Now, i dun find raisins all tt bad anymore.. but oh well.. let it stay out of my rice or cakes anywaes, cuz it's kinda spoilin lorh! =)

Hmm.. speakin of cakes, i miss cocktail cake!!!!! =( who wanna buy for me?

2006-02-26T23:02:00.000-08:00

Maybe i should just DIE in this world.
None would miss.. or even care anyway!!!!!!!!

I'm just so unworth..

Everywher i go, everyone i'm with..i'm nothing but just a outside lookin in!

2006-02-26T15:52:00.000-08:00

Yeapi!!!

Exactly one month to my bday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

2006-02-25T23:32:00.000-08:00

Woke up like.. really early..6 30 am leh. hahaha..it's been a LONG TIME since i wake up early.. since my sch days..obviously -.- gotta go ut early cuz my parents were goin out early..my dad pei-ed my mom at the hosp, and me went to meet dear cuz we dun hab much time with each other 2dy =( Find dear at ard 8am, and we went to yi yuen and hab breakfast together norh. =x before tt, spend quality time lorh =))

After eatin, pei-ed deat to the bank awhile lor, and then we went walkd ard lor..went nan yang for a vry longtym tho -.- keep see this and tt le. hehe. and both us bought the cool hallmark frames. keke.

Ard 10 am ++, have to go home liao orh!=( papa msg-ed me tell me he's goin home liao, and if i do not follow, no car for me lor. =( si beh nt happy le, din spend much time with dear..bt bo bien also.. hai..dear pei-ed me wait for my pa and then he go back office lor.

Homed, talkd with dear on the ph agn =P . then went to Zzzz.. till 6pm then wake up ler -.-

Showered, get ready to go out agn.. hehe. to sharyn's farewell at jolene nia. Fun fun. choi, me, ivan, silver, sharyn, adrain, makong, xiao hua, alvin present. excludin thos ppl who spark here and there and left. spoilers.. dun you think ?

Hab fun eatin and jokin and takin pictures lor. the foods not nice at all. except the pork thingie. and well.. everyone's felt filling liao, i'm stil hungry. and the foods has finished! ivan spare me his pork =P since he's ........Full.

Takin pics, and out come the cake. hehe. decoration nt nice lar, but the cake nt bad leh =) kena laff by everyone cuz i take so many pieces to eat. hai.. say me fat and all =( then hor.. they all played with the cake icing. it's been so long i never done tt. since.....two yrs ago =s

After eatin..at the carpark..evryone's takin sharyn's flower and were posing this guy-kneel-down-and-propose-the-girl-with-flower thingie.. adrain and sharyn is the sweetest! haha =D

Went round round, and then homed lor. hehehe.

And...today is....
me and dear 1yr 7mths anniversary!!!!

Happy =D

2006-02-24T14:14:00.000-08:00

Weee. sleepy!

Went to bandar yesterday with mie friends. was kinda du lan at first leh, makong fooled me..when i was all ready and waitin for let's see, for the past 30 mins, makong called and tell me the trip to bandar is cancelled! wtf?!?! so beh song le.. den in middle when makong is talkin to me, saw his car appeared in front of my hse.. wua lan. kena fooled ah.

Me, makong, choi choi, adrain, sharyn, silver, reggie, and nai wen went together norh. when reachin the mall, makong said he wanna buy a belt first, coz he say his pants gonna drop -.- after that we went to the top floor and get movie tickets lor... hai.. watchd heirloom norh. not my choice. Their choice. i bo bien. i'm the only one who dun watch scary movies, so no words say must accompany with them also ma. lolx.

Since me have'nt eaten anythin since i wake up, so makong, choi, adrain and me went to eat. eat at kylos kebab norh.. nice nice! haha. so long din eat there liao. lolx. the fries there is superb. keep on stealin fries from makong. haha.

After eatin we drop by the big cd shop lor, and got one cd there. aint all tt nice tho when i hear last nyt, oni few songs nia..but nvm lorh, it's only $2 anywaes =P

Our show starts at 5.45pm, and had to rush to the cinema lor. On the way to the cinema keep thinkin how should i survive this two hr -.- toopid, yea yea.. i know.. but i scare maa!!! gee..

Survived the 2 hr, obviously.. watchin the movie with my face covered in hands and peekin thru my fingertips. hahaha.. oh well.. the movie aint scary anywaes, it's just the scary sounds which always come out. and obviously, others felt the movie is boring..-.- since it's nth scary. hai.

Went round round, and then went for dinner lor at the cafe de paris. dun be fooled by the name larh.. laoya food eatin place. haha. had pork chop rice nia.. not nice de..all the foods also not nice anywaes lor.

Starts journey home after tt lor, since it's 9 pm liao..sharyn and adrain is at the back.. zzz away while me and makong talkd most of the way home lor.. nt includin i fell asleep awhile too! when i was halfway listenin to songs. haha.

homed, showered quickly, and talkd with dear as he will be waitin. hehe. talkd for an hr plus, then we both went zzz together le lorh!

Woke up at 3am leh.. dunno y.. need to pee i think.. and was abit scare..-.- agn vry toopid. scare till dun dare open eyes and walkd to my aircon and adjust the coldness leh..mie god.. in the end go adjust also.. and quickly opened my lights.. dunno what i'm so scared also? gee.. must be the movie ba.. ma de.. slept with the lights on leh.. then halfway asleep liao reached under my bed and off the whole room main switch. haha. toopid neh!

2006-02-21T11:12:00.000-08:00

Felt an internal Freeze..
Din have that feeling for a long time already..
Been two whole mths..the last is in Dec, when i almost fainted..
now it's back..
Even worse than before.

2006-02-19T19:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday # happy happy day!!! =D woke up, get ready and meet up with dear. instead of spending time at office like usual, this time we spent in his home. keke. once in a blue moon then can happen norh! =x go to his home together, and spend such many quality times!! =)

Afternoon we cookd mee to eat wor, eat liao spend time agn. hehehe. took many many pics too ler, and talkd mch. after tt watch movie nia, supposing to watch "love don't cost a thing" leh, tapi leh.. have'nt watch much and we do something else =x

Also eat dinner at dear's hse, haha.. cuz makong late came to pick me up ma.. tt's y norh. reached home to a bad stomachache. dunno why =( anywaes, it's a happy day.

Xin is very very happy!!!

Today # woke up si beh late, have a weeny row with dear nia..but ok liao. got ready and went out with makong they all lorh. went moi nam, and had honey lemon and toast. i'm hungry can -.- had no foods in me leh. then meet up with sharyn, silver, willy they all and went to the beach norh. then come hm lioa. hahaha.

Tired ah !

2006-02-16T17:32:00.000-08:00

Shit orh, where has my FEB 15 post gone to?!?! Eeerkk..i've written a post on tt day regardin V nyt de worh.. shit le.. =(

In summary, i did went out in the end. for the reason of my sudden craving for steamboat!! hahaha. Siao tak came to pick me at 8 30pm, but in the end, b'coz seaview's full, so they all decided meng fang instead lor. booo..~ so wasted norhs =(

Got abt 15 people goin in total nia, hehe. Me, siao tak, nai wen, xiao hui, siao chien, thien lee, ah boy, chee fung, xiang xiang, nai yong, olivia, nai kok, ah boon, ah piang, peter mui and er..i think i forgot the rest of it liaohs. hahaha.

The foods abit dissapointing norh, compare to makong's welcome back dinner at meng fang last tym. but this time, there's this fish, SO NICE CAN !!! kept on turnin the table for the fish to be towards me. Not only tt, dunno tt nyt esp big eater or wat, everyone felt filling and cannot continue eat anymore, but i'm stil happily munching away, hahas. even scolded siao tak b'coz he wasted his rice and i want a second bowl also dun have. but then, i've ever hardly finish a bowl of rice de wor, normally eat the meats only. oh well. mayb i'm super hungry. lolx.

after eatin they decided put fireworks nia, so tt turn to kok kok hse to take the fireworks. the fireworks damn nice worhs. hehe. i'm a big sakai tho, i dunno why when the fireworks are playing, i kept on runnin here and there behind someone fearin when i watch it the fire will poke on my face or eyes. lolx. thinkin baq realise myself stupid nia. haha.

When homed called dear str8 away lor, to tell him i'm home, was vry happy he wait for me to be back ler before goin to sleep. hehehe. talkd talkd and then went to bed lor.

hai......these two days also dno wat wrong with me ler. always wake up so early.. like 8 am++ !! imagine..xin wake up so early. hai..and then every noon will be tired and went to bed and sleep till 5 pm++. haha. noe wat? i dun hate it! =P

2006-02-14T17:37:00.000-08:00

Valentine day todae norh. =x

What is everyone doing now? make-ing up and gettin dress up prettily to meet their beloveds for dinner? day dreaming wat present their beloveds are gonna suprise them with? Waitin in the room for ur beloved's miscall tellin you he had reach your hse and is outside while lookin at the mirror if your make up's perfect? or just sittin at home alone cuz you dun have a date or someone to spend with?

Valentine's Day where most of the people will ask for chances? have a happy day with their love ones.. have a nice and romantic dinner.. exchanging gifts, gals receiving bouquet of roses .. Those who have their love ones by their side today would be a happy day for them.. LoOking in the other way round, Valentine's Day also make a person unhappy, depressed, lost of confidence, wanting their love ones to be by their side but they cant for some reasons.. Should i call this an unfair situation ? Today, every gals expects a rose.. or flowers from the person they love or like.. Valentine's Day without rose.. it doesnt mean anything.. it's just a quote saying "its valentine's day" and just have dinner outside.. *quoted by Lee*

Well. kinda true aint it? But for me, i could be out if i want to, or i could also stay at home. Having 2 sets of people askin me to have dinner, both also i had reject ba. you must be thinkin.. why so stupid? why dun go out enjoy? etc etc.. nono. well, todae is valentine day after all, and i had someone i love. Only our date could not be fulfilled due to a no-chance situation. or else, i guess i would be one of the girls who are now standin in front of their mirror, deciding which piece of clothing i should wear and making up =) I cn go out with my friends if i want to, but i just wan todae for my special one, even if he could'nt make it. i dun mind.

Have been tryin to acces to limewire so i could find someone in there, got some songs, and burn it into a cd and present it to dear. but leh............. the limewire so toopid, i dunno hw to deal with it, ah yin aint on9 to guide me. hai. cek pek arh =(

2006-02-11T21:30:00.000-08:00

Sighs, heavily sick agn norhs =(

Think me and dear transmit disease to each other lorhs, todae both me and dear sick sick liao and we also slept late. dear did'nt went for work, and we also din get to mit up. *sad*

Something made me vry touched norh, dear is actually more heavily sick than me, but den dear lasnyt ard 10pm+ i guess, set alarm to wake up just bcoz he wna remind me to eat my med before me go to bed. tho dear too sick din hear the alarm ba.. but still..when he told me d next mornin ( today mornin ..duh! ) felt vry touched. =))

Nvm din get to spend tym together ba, next week dear promised me kfc together. wee hees. like old times ba. long tym we dun do it liao=P Hopefully, dear can make it back on valentine nyt.. if not..

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H E A R T B R E A K !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lolx. kua zhang hor. hehe.

2006-02-10T18:44:00.000-08:00

anyone misses my posts?!?!?!.. * silents *

Well ok.. hahas. lolx. been very happenin since the last day i blogged.. err.. when issit? yea. on chu3. frm then till todae alot thingies have happened, been to many places and all. bt well.. thought of bloggin it out, but then i've forgotten most of it. so..sorry =P

Last saturday is the last day mie spend time with bessie yun yun liao, cuz she's gonna be baq in kk for her A's and not gonna come baq till june. that's like.. after her graduation? after her bday? AND after my bday too!!! =( two yrs we din do bdays together liao, bcos of the distance..sigh.. bt wat to do.. and most.. our bday party supposedly on feb 4 is canceled liao worh..hais..sang xing leh. anywaes, on the same nyt feb 4, we all had a gatherin lorh..kinda like a farewell i suppose. Yun, mandy, Qiang, Chen and ah yeng, pk, dear and me all present sittin at one round table. while the other table, adrain and xin, ivan and silver, xiao hua, reggie, kuaci, and er..i forgot who arh...at the other table.. steamboat..bt din tok much with anione, coz was busy-in cookin for moi dear to eat..gotta feed his tummy=P but the foods damn nice cn! =D

But too bad got lil misfortune happen ba, yun fell down and we sent her to hosp. not a big thingie la..after tt we went to moi nam, for a last tea. hehehe. after tt reggie sent yun home and then me home le ba..

Las monday was the chms lion dance wor. went there with my so called fren and ah yeng lor. we went late leh, and there is like..totally no seats at all for us k.. at first, we sat at the stairs, damn irritating can o not!! >.< hate those ppl who step on my butt, my back, my leg etc etc, mood also gonna be foul le..see choi txt him up ask him bring me up da stage. haha. song! =) so thruout the nyt we watch from the stage norh..

Was home until Today..Today leh.......veli the hapi worh, dear got me a guess watch as valentine pressie!!! *grins* one of my fav brands can! =D was agog when seein my lovely new guess watch. =) dear also got me a......." cheque" hahahs. happy happy. but me vry bad leh, din get dear anytin =( i cnt go miri ma.. nt i dun wan also.. =s and we celebrate an early valentine celebration lor, cuz he mostly cudnt be back on 14.. sad. hopefully things can change =( aftr tt we went bought a dvd, intendin to watch it together de, den who noes ler, halfway dear say he too sleepy wanna sleep, complainin it's my fault worh, for keepin him up late at nyt just to talk with me. sorry wor dear..really wna talk wif u ma.. hehe.

OOoo..CNY over soon leh.. =( bt it's ok..when i homed, i got a $10 ang pao frm simon uncle!! yeapii!!! =P and i suddenly remember.. i forgot to visit chow mei this yr.. i've ALWAYS went to her hse.. hais.. sang xing.

And btw..i definitely enjoy my sleepin, eatin, tv-ing, slackin life. muahaha. no stress of sch and work. puurr fect.. =D

2006-02-10T10:06:00.000-08:00

Oh well, went out in the end orh, suddenly i felt soo huge urge to steamboat, so went with siao tak and the others. but sad, i only noe at last minute tt they could'nt book the place, cuz it's fully booked..so went ming fang instead. *sad* The food aint all tt nice anywaes, except for the buttermilk prawn, the fish..the fish(which i kept forgettin what name..) is damn nice!!!!=P keep turnin the table so i can get the fish in front of me. hahaha. The people present is Yours Truly, siaw tak, nai wen, xiao hui, siao chien, thien lee, chee fung, xiang xiang, ah boy, nai kok, ah boon, ah piang, peter mui, nai yong, olivia.. missin anyone out o nt? forgotten liao norh.. hahaha. Most were carryin N70, my dream fone. *jealous* =(

After dinner they decided put fireworks worhs, the fireworks very beautiful ler actually.. hehe. and i'm a big sakai. =P smhow, when the fireworks are goin, i dunno why i kept on runnin behind someone to hide? and fearin the thingie will hit and burn my face or eyes? thinkin back, why do i think dat way huh.. so sibeh lame =s

After tt it's pretty late lor, so hurry siao tak to send me home. and ofcos, i'm the earliest lor =s on the journey, talkd alot abt the past tho.. Hmm..

When home, immediately called dear orh..dear nt happy with me le, coz i forgotten to call him when i go home late. dear, vry vry sorry. i din do it on purpose. really.. for the first time, i forgot something so impt. really vry sorry. i won't repeat the mistake agn k ..and was really happy u wait me to be homed then u sleep. noe you were worried. muacks.

Talkd with dear awhile, tv-ing, and went to bed. dunno why, woke up so early today!!! 9 am lerh, haiss.. was in bed just nw suddenly remember the old times orh, the two yrs back when me, yun, dear, cl, pk always went to mien dang hab our breakfast before goin to sch. miss miss =(

2006-01-31T18:54:00.000-08:00

29 jan 06 # F i r s t day of cny!!! weees..=) mommy woke us all up at 9 am ler, talkd with dear for a while, get ready and and whole family went out for breakfast at ming fang leh..hehe. the dim sum there is nice!!! esp the ha mai.. hehe. Kb got nice dim sum arh...so suprising. =P Bumped into willy and his family tim.. after breakfast str8 away go seria le ba.. wna go pai nien ..but before tt ofcos mommy and papa gv ang paos to me and my bro.

Headed to seria to yun's place, and then wait for ah yew and kacat, cuz kacat is our driver for tt day! When ah yew came, talkd alot ler, and then ah wei.. yun's mama askd us take many many pics wat..after dat.. the old routine.. go mandy's hse pai nien lorh. hehehe. After go mandy hse went back yun's hse le.. cuz we dunno wher to go.. and den hor.. have to wait for the da xiao jie, amy to come.. =s so wait lor.. ate so much there la.. and another bowl of mien sien which yun mama make tim!!! after tt we went to hui yung hse pai nien leh..

at 5pm makong and willy came and pickd us up wor, they pai nien at yun hse for while 1st norhx, den they all wna go dear's hse ma.. so in de end ..went lor..then we sun bien go shih wei hse pai nien.. since NEIGHBOURS ma.. lolx. at 7pm both makong and willy gotta dinner with family lor.. and then they dropped us at dit ching hse lor.. since she gt openhse and me, emma, amy wna visit her ma.. since she had been in sg for so long.. =( at 9pm makong came and pickd us up lor and go alan teo's hse!! his bday party worh!!! and he got invite me.. so honoured. hehehe. the spaghetti there is so damn nice!!!!!=P but den.. dun wna eat much liao leh, cuz get teased and laughed by everybody i got spare tyres bo *sad*

30 jan 06 # Another miri trip!!! hehehe.. sibeh happy cn. *smile big big* Before goin down to mir, mommy go soon lee buy four bags of rice ba ( the rice is nt available in miri k.. before u weirded out abt it) the four bags are for... 1st ee, 2nd ee, big qq, and small qq. hahaha. equal hor! 1 big 1 small. =D when reachin miri, dropped by hui yi hse and dropped my bag der.. and she came back and pickd me up to pai nien. brought me to jiu mu's family side. suprising.. they all know who i am.. keep on sayin.. " Q bai kon gi han se se.. wan pi wan pi an niong ge, ging nya git tai liao ahhh!!!! ....and so on " i hv like...absolutely NO IDEA who they r.. mommy then told me when i'm young i'm always go out pai nien to jiu mu's family. oh well.. hahaha. Go about 3 jiu mu's sistas hse.. but too bad.. i miss yi po hse liao.. hahahs. cuz they been ter before i was down. =(

After goin to all jiu mu's side.. its our family side turn!!!! =D went to 1st ee hse, and stay there for vry long tym leh, get to c hui ya, xiao ah wei and ah qiang...so many yrs din see them liao.. hehe. so fun being there leh.. and ate many of those cakes which hui ya make. hahaha. 1st ee even noe i dun like raisins or walnuts in my cakes.. she even plucked them out of some cakes then gv me eat -.- wua lan.. how old liao arh.. still spoiled me.. hahaha.. from young oso liddat liao de worhs.. and 1st ee, 2nd ee keep on siak siak me... migod.. so paiseh lehx.. i'm d oni one who got dis kinda treatment.. and then force me and hui yi sit in front of all the elderly' sistahs ( mommy, 1st ee, 2nd ee) and go squints at our faces.. nose luk like whose.. eyes luk like whose.. face shape luk like whose.. -.- haha.. after tt we went t0 big qq hse lor... bt jin jin and siew fui nt at home 1.. cheww..

After big qq hse, went back to hui yi hse loo... then hui yi brought me out str8 away.. to go pai nien wif her friends.. met all her kl friends wor.. and got ang baos. went to pakson walkd awhile at 7pm++++ cuz jie wna get make up remover.. homed at 7 45pm le.. was rushin to bath.. cuz ah wee hv to pickd us at 8 30pm to our cousin gathering..bt in d end also xiao qq bring us..cuz he decided he wna go as well..hahaha. wen si also followed ofcourse. tho he still young young.. went to da imperial suite which mommy and 2nd ee stayed.. and it was fun all nyt long. =D

first everyone was given ang baos leh, hehehe. the elderlys were runnin ard givin us ang baos.. and then we sit together ard 1 table and gossip. me joked and played wif ah qiang and xiao ah wei le.. since i'm sittin in btw them.. then took many fotos lor.. the group family fotos and all... and popped open the red wine and tooooaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssttttttt our familyship and cousinship. lolx. so funny. mommy toast she happy cn see all the family this yr, 1st ee toast wishin everyone well, 2nd ee toast she glad for 2nyt.. lolx. hahhaha!!! dun rmb so many wat i did liao lor.. but i did rmb pillow fightin with ah fung and wen si tho. hahaha. ah fung whack me with the pillow so hard de moment i went into da bedroom leh.. so the pillow fyt begins =) ah fung was so ticklish.. so me go and rape him for bullyin me. hahaha. and then ngam ngam wen si was lyin on d bed ma.. ah fung vry big size leh.. and he go and sleep on top of wen si.. wen si so sufocated til his face so darn red.. then me go and jump on top of ah fung and tickle him. hahaha. he did the most aggresive thing =( he pickd me at my knee, swing me across his back.. and run ard the livin room gv the whole family laugh leh =( then he threw me on the bed. so pain. hahha.

Played til ard midnyt leh, then 1st ee say she tired..then duno y everyone else also go home=( me and hui yi so beh song abt it.. then ah fung drove me to hui yi hse to get my bag lor..cuz me decided wna sleep in imperial. lolx.

Slept at 3 am i tink.. was fun-ning with ah fung.. was abit unhappy at 1st ba.. and he knew.. like a big bro.. ofcos he hugged hugged me and make me happy lor.

31 jan 06 # Wake at 8 30 am le...i'm the latest to wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( d mo i walk out of the room door, ah fung teasing me liao.. tellin mommy and ee.. " you see.. you seee... her mornin face loook.... her blur blur look.. her stupid look and ran ovr to squah my face -.- pain arh pain.. get ready, and me and him go for breakfast together, since mommy and ee wna stay in the suite. tapao for them, then spend more time foolin ard lor....since i wna walkd bt the shops aint pen yet. ah fung piggy back me leh.. so song!! cuz he's so HUGEEEE!!!! at 10 30am push him outta door and ask him pei me go shoppin ba.. hahaha.. he berry patient, holdin my stuff and waitin for me. lolx. then he brought me to frank's deli for snackin.

Imperial got performance leh ..he also pei-ed me watch since i wna watch.. ah wee also der with me..he went to the suite in da mornin.. since he's sleepin at home.. haha. then me and fung bet maa.. i say the lion will sure fall down... he say wont.. but it really did!!!!!!!! hahaha.. he owe me 1..=) but still havent decide wat i wan.. hehe. aftr tt al of us went for lunch wor.. at frank's deli agn..so so full already cn!! ah fung keep on touchin and pinchin my tummy.. haiss.. in d end.. eat agn also.. share spaghetti with fung, and hv mushroom soup.. hhaha.. ah wee gf called, sittin beside him ma.. go tease tease lor.. " Hello.. ah wee big laopo!!! me ah wee xiao laopo leh!!" i guess d gf ask who issit wat.. cuz ah wee sed " my stupid sister" tmd... then ah wee askd me to get to noe his gf ma..so talkd wif her awhile lor. hehe.

Trip over lo.... went to hui yi hse agn, coz mommy wna see grandpa ma.. and hui yi esp come back frm her fren place to see me leh. so siak me. haha. she actually ask me stay der few more nyts with her and then go pai nien with her le.. bt mommy no allow!!! hais.. sang xing.. =( so homed lo.. mommy and me gt meaningful talk on the way home.

Now leh.....i finish liaO.. heheh.. gonna get ready go pai nien with friends soon. hehe =)

2006-01-29T17:53:00.000-08:00

Back back back.. miss me? i doubt it. hehe.

24 jan 06 # Asleep, met dear unexpectantly cuz he back early to see me. hehehe. happy norhx. went to pagolak and hab out lunch there leh, ordered our faV's der, sizzling beef=) after eatin went back to the office and spend time together whole noon worhs. at 5pm went cd shop together and then go marilyn to eat lehs. hahaha. aftr tt reggie came, picked me up, bumped into van, and again..unexpectadly go seria for shoe shoppin. no shoe for me le..=( nth cathes my eye. homed and bath lor.

25 jan 06 # H o m e d cuz dear have to help at home so cannot meet meet lor.=(

26 jan 06 # Dear went miri with his cuzzies. talkd at 5am ler.. sot sot hor=) went back ZzZz after hanging up. woke up at 11am++++ and mommy brought me to office to collect my pay lerhs. aftr tt go home eat lunch and wait for mandy's call to go miri ler.. at last confirm but ah qiang oni came and pickd me up at 2pm!!!!=( so late can.. and ah Qiang drive so slow agn.. so impatitent meet dear at boulevard lei. at last we reach also at like.. 3 30pm? cnt shop with dear lor.. he just gave me money and leave liao =( walkd ard in boulevard for while, took neoprints with mandy and then headed to Imperial leh, hehehe. On d way called my sistahz..and she said she would meet me ltr in Imperial.. so went shop shop with my friends. hehe. before we shop we went to buy foods eat ler..so hungry!!!! =s then after eatin got energy to shop liaohs. hehe. Bought few clothes lor.. like.. F I N A L L Y .. mostly from roger yong. actually.. more like all except for 1 piece. cuz their clothes sibeh nice.. and original!!! hahaha. just one type of each item. no copycats yo. spend so much there lar.. bt worth it.. cuz i got many clothes!!! *grins* pei-ed mandy for shoe shoppin le.. she wan those street style and all.. so no shoes for me again lor.. both ah qiang and ah chen were so darn patient, trialing us wherever we go, holdin the clothes which we wanna try.. and our shoppin bags. hahah. jie jie oso very siak, come all the way from carpark to roger yong just to pay for me using her card.. why? cuz she also buy all her clothes there maa.. and she gt membership card.. imagine if i buy without the discounts..i reckon it will be.. $600+++? * faints* ofcos thanks very much to dear leh.. cuz he gv me mch money to shop. ehehe. muah muah. went for steamboat at micheal steamboat. went back there cuz it's sooooooooo damn nice!!!! =D eat till almost vomit liddat arh.. haha. then on our way home ler. when homed wear all my clothes agn.. and THEN.. bath. hehehe. bo bien. i like.=)

27 jan 06 # woke up at 12 30pm ler, get ready and went out meet dear liao worhs. hehehe. spend time untill 4pm le.. cuz dear have to go grandma hse. so pei-ed him go seria while me go meet my dear bessie who back from kk ler. hehehe. walkd ard, eat dinner at her home, went soon lee with her family and homed at 10 30 pm. =s but sleep late ler, coz not hapi dt nyt.. gt bit nt gd with dear.. so felt moody nia cannot fall asleep, then heard mommy is outside living room ma..cos got sound..so go out and see y mommy so late din sleep lo.. yuen lai she fry-ing the keropok leh.. me very guai.. go and help.. when avthing finish it's 2 30am liao lo.. wash face and went to bed, coz in kitchen sibeh hot ba standin in front of the wok and fry-ing=s but cannot sleep peacefully ler=(

28 jan 06 # T o d a y !!!!!!!!! woke up at 1pm+ ler..lunch and then help with cleanin norh. coz dear so jia liat say i dun do things.. so go and do lor. hehehe. do whole noon le.. bathed, play Ps2 with my lil bro and eat dinner with my fam. after eating dear called liao. hehehe. 2mr cny loo.. happy cny to everyone!!!!

2006-01-19T09:26:00.000-08:00

Yeh, recently more updates coming in. hehes.

Was with mie dear fwen mandy yesterday, papa come to pick me up after work, pickd up mandy, and drop us to town. we went shoppin nehx, and i was trying on clothes. none satisfactory tho=( not even the pink one. it's just nt as nice as hui yi's friend's one. hahaha. so din get it. went to all da clothes shop in seria nia, but zip zap nada nothing. guess won't be having any cny clothes. how depressing=( went to Yen li at last, always love the jeans there and got my jeans there av yr. but NOO...i did fall in love with one jean leh, but hor.. it's L size and when i wear it, it look way too big and loose for my butt. hahaha. the previous yr fell in love with the S size jeans nw i fell in love with a L size jeans which has no longer the M size. shit. so din get anythin at all worh................

Had tea after tt le, since we so sibeh tired and hot. hehehe. get french toast and ice lemon tea, we sit there gossiping and making ppl's life miserable. lolx. jk. bt well..we did'nt managed to stay there for vry long anywaes, cuz it's like... DAMN HOT.

went for CD shoppin leh, saw the "devil beside me" which i wanted so mch, was so tempted..i had been wantin to watch it for such longtym yet no one haves it=( after thinkin for like...VRY LONG.. decided to treat myself nehx. kekeke. and sure ting. no regrets cos the drama is a FAB. like ..so totally ..completely FAB. till i even forgotten to sleep nia..=s got 2 chinese songs CD also le, so sibeh nice. hahaha.

Before goin home, mandy sed she wanna go Akira see those electrical stuff wor, so pei her larh, and on ma way saw the black kua zhi. ALL TIME FAVOURITE!=D askd mandy if she wants it, and we bought and share lor. but hor.. we aint expecting it's so big le, we called for $3 oni.. and it's like.. half a plastic bag?=( can die from eating tt. hahaha.

headed to her home le, popped in the CD, munch on the kua zhi and gossip for the rest of the noon. hehe. Ard 5pm mandy askd me if i wanna go joggin with her.. i sed ok lor, since i never jog with her anywaes, fun ma=) papa dun wan wait for me leh, in the end, reggie sed he bring me home.=) walked to ogdc, and we have'nt even start our journey, we met najib and harold. former F5 sci SMSS. haha. so hapi. in da end, we just went to the beach and have laughs. soon, wilson, adam, thomas and teck siong also come along, since they were done with joggin. wua lua. all F5 sci SMSS yea noe? hehe.after awhile, we went to ogdc and have drinks and foolin ard at the playground. then go home liao lo avbody.

Changed, and reggie is nearly at mandy's hse le, take my thingies and left. reggie brought me home. bathed, dinner and talkd with dear on the ph. talk few hrs then i felt rather sleepy already. say nyt nyt to dear and wanna doze de, suddenly dear called agn sed he nt gonna sleep so early cuz his friend wna call him and so waited for his msg before he sleep. in process of waitin hor, put the "devil beside me" and watch. in the end, i watched till 2 a.m then i go sleep. toopid lehx. not purposely 1..really dun notice de time ma..and the movie's soooooooo FAB.

Later late noon have to popped to pat's hse, it's a suprise farewell party for her. surely she'll be VERY suprised. haha. She gonna back to aussie tomoro.... will be missin her so much =(

2006-01-18T09:24:00.000-08:00

Yehs~ got my two beloved song already.

1) B.a.d: wo de chuo
2)Gary chau: Shi jie wei yi de ni

and third which i wanted.............

3)Guang Liang: Yue ding

So in love with those two songs i've gotten. hahas. was still feeling foul from lasnyt le, but nvm.. got used to it already this kinda thingies. most proly gonna pamper myself after work, no one wna pamper me, of cos gotta pamper myself lor..=(

Was thinkin of choppin my hair off now.. wtf? i grew my hair for like.. YEARS already can..and now suddenly i'm thinkin of choppin it? omg.....it would be like..so Syng, cos i love my hair so much, and there is a sentiment for growin my hair out..this reason is just for me to noe yeh =) and btw, the reason aint to curl my hair. hahaha. well..i dunno..

I got my pendrive!!!! hahas! my own pendrive! xin's own pendrive. her own property! *exgrating* (forgotten hw you spell it) and it's 256 too! so happy can. i just give this reason.." you noe la, me and moi friends always like to take pics ma.. once can take like over 100 pics.. and avtym i wan the pics i gotta bolo pendriv from friend ba..so mafan.." and he say he buy me one. hahas. i wonder if i use the reason " pa.. can you buy me a digicam..you noe la.. i always like to take pics.. manual cam bo use lar..bla blA bla" will he buy me a sony cam? hahas. i doubt it anywaes. lol.

Was supposing to clean up mie room leh. since like..ages ago?but STILL..i have'nt done it. haihs. see my messy room so sickenin. the closet alone is like tornado hit. i could'nt find my clothes, my underwear my socks is such a biggie prob liao. too bad yun aint here. she will help me clean it. hahas. yesterday supposing to clean de..since work half day, but lunch oso no appetite eat, went nappin and woke up at 7pm!!! friggin late.. and also dunno HOW i sleep the nyt. and i do too! btw..

I'm seriously having trouble sleeping. for months nw, i can nv sleep peacefully.it's always wakin up in sweat or having bad dreams. like lastnyt for instance, i cnt rmb wat i dreamt tho..bt what i do rmb, is someone threathen me to jaga some place, or something, while the go spying or something.. and somehow it went to a dream of a mud shell beach. i dun even noe wth is tt. it's like..the beach is like full of SHELLS. black shells btw..........nt pretty ones.. and even the water is made of shells too! like..ur supposed to walk thru the shells, or sleep on the shells and get a mud bath? wtf....and you cnt go in the so called beach water made of shells too, cuz the shells in the "water" were alive and if you go in it..you get swallow up, but the sand "shells" are dead.. and that's where you mud bath.. and i woke up feeling my whole body ache. hai.

2006-01-17T10:10:00.000-08:00

I'm back for bloggin! hehehs. was happening for the past 4 days leh.. but lazy blog since fri wor... so i'll just blog about yesterday yeh..sowwie chow mei.. a supposed long post gonna be short. hehes.

Worked half day since last fri, yesterday, and the days to come. (suprised to hear this? I'm tellin you in summary, just cos there aint any "business" and any "customers" and it's like..so friggin quiet! in da office, Bella jus askd me work half day, dun say it's gd, dun say so song, salary oso giv half de..so nth to be happy abt yeahs? and worse..I DID NOT ASKD FOR IT...bt anyhow..i'm happy for the half days=) but EXCLUDE the pay can! sial..)

Met up wif darling van after work. we have'nt catch up fer like..AGES yehs. so was kinda busy chit-chattin away. Head to helen saloon. Van perm her hair while i just cut my hair like..2 inch shorter? Seein my hair fall to the ground made my heart bleed. probably it bleeds more than the heartbroken hurt. HAHAHA. not funny. i hope my hair does'nt take AGES to grow. i wanna perm like so friggin much, and the helen ppl was like " Tho we also wanna make money, but this kinda money cannot ruan ruan earn..blah blah blah..cuz ur hair bleached so strongly last tym so you couldnt do it yada yada yada and the chirping continues...." SO.. i could'nt do my hair. and SO..i thought of wna highlightin my hair.. THEN nth nice agn.. guess wut? " your hair already vry nice, many colours, if do highlights will make it look vry messy yada yada yada so on...." In the end? i just sit there waitin for van's hair to be curled.

Her hair is actually pretty nice wat....it makes her look girlish. hahas. and the whole noon i was like.. staring at her hair, green with envy, purple with jealousy. wishin i can put her hair on mine. wtf. but i can understand nw why they dun let me curl my hair. wua lan. van's hair is like ..so GD? so NICE? after permin, the ends is just like my old hair before i cut.

Was feelin EMO these days ya noe? like ..so so EMO. yesterday was like so friggin upset. wad i did meant nth wat......I'm never gd enuf..i have to be "perfect" . The "ideal" one. so and so. dun feel like wakin up dis mornin..wad can i do? I'm gonna take a LONG LONG HOL soon! I'm just SO cravin for miri steamboat. muahaha. That's my plan. a gur gonna heal her heart aites?

Was so NOT in the cny festive mood. reason? My hair SUCKS (i'm not talkin about the hair colour btw) , i got like Z e r O cny clothes. reason? cos i dun have money, and the clothes in Kb sucks, and papa dun wan bring me go miri as there is just SO MANY gd clothes.

Now.. even my own 18th bday party i totally lost the feeling for it. dunno why. no more buidin castles about wearin pretty dress, lovely makeup, beautiful hair, gd foods, mountians of pressies so on and on..dunno why..dun feel like havin the party anymore.

All i wan now...curl in my bed and sob. watch tv and sleep. totally no appetite too. din eat anythin. maybe that's a gd thing ya noe? was seriously gainin weight (dun say wat i'm so thin i'm nt faT dis kinda shit lar) i'm talkin abt the baby fat on ma face and tummy. hahaha.

Nice read.... read the below yeh..

Think about it girls... Will YOUR BOYFRIEND BEAT UP YOUR MOLESTER?

Those who will, will fly into a rage and at the minimum, scold the person who outraged your modesty.Those who won't, will pat you on the shoulder, try to calm you down, and say fucking useless things like, "Never mind, next time just be more careful, ok?"...Or "Shit, we should go to the police. Are you ok? (of course not you chao wimp!) Let's go have dinner and cheer you up."

WIMPS.

FAGGOTS.

I despise guys like that.They have no balls, whatsoever. Fuck you and your calm, objective logic. If you ain't such a nail-polishing fag, you would stomp the balls of someone bullying your sister, your girlfriend, or your wife.

No, don't give me bullshit like, "Oh, violence doesn't solve any problems..." or "It is not worth it going to jail for just a molester!"

WEAK EXCUSES SAID BY WEAK MEN.

No lady will feel secure with you. Or maybe she will... IF SHE IS A TRANNY AND CAN PROTECT HERSELF.

Are you in pas c and below? You must be. A real man will allow such injustice to happen and need other men (police) to help them! That's just fucking stupid, and makes you a complete loser.

I know, logic states we shouldn't beat people up, because we will go to jail.So? I'm not asking about logic now. I'm talking about at that spot, at that time, do you have enough testosterone in you to do the innate thing?

WHICH IS TO GUARD YOUR TERRITORY?Wuss.

We girls hate c*ck-sucking wimps. Omg, I hear something, what is it? It is your penis! It is whining about how it is always limp! Sad.

Little boys reading this, when you grow up, don't be a wimp, coz all the other boys will look down on you, and all the girls will pee on you. Just kidding, the girls won't. Coz we won't let you anywhere near us.

Fucking libertarians. Fuck you and your ... society will solve it's own problems bullshit.It's never gonna happen.

Did you get educated in RI, RJC, then NUS or something? CONGRATULATIONS. You have only met the creme de la creme of society, so do not presume the rest of the world is so clever.Before you decide society is smart enough to govern itself, GO DO BANQUET WAITERING.I'm serious. When you come out of that place, you will realise how stupid the mass public is. We cannot be governed without laws, with absolute freedom of speech.

BECAUSE STUPID PEOPLE BELIEVE EVERYTHING THEY READ.

Stop being a mama's boy and use your pathetic limp excuses to protect yourself from getting into any harm. You are just a coward and nothing else.Grrr.I just hate guys like that.Nothing. I just suddenly feel a hatred for these excuses of men. Please lar, go and be a tranny, I think you will be perfect.

Hahahs. got this from xiaxue's blog. she really aint the most famous blogger for nth. Assumin something must have happen, or else she won't be sayin this way yehs?

2006-01-09T11:34:00.000-08:00

Haven't been bloggin agn =s

Din hv much to blogged wat nw..evryday it's jus the same..wake up, work, homed, bath, online, dinner, talk with dear, tv, sleep. That's my routine.

Yesterday felt happy leh.. not tellin wat issit. it happened..erm.. 10.15pm. hehes. finally ler..everything is ok agn. *smilin*

2006-01-03T15:39:00.000-08:00

Back for bloggin! Today already the 3rd Jan liao beh..3rd day of 2006 already.. but somehow i felt i'm still in 2005 ler..

31 dec 05 # Worked half day, supposing till 12pm nia, but bella let me off at 11am, alang alang give me off marh hor, so i can go miri early..kept on lookin at the clock while at office le, well..maybe she saw i was gettin impatient ba, hahas. since so early, papa picked me up and broughtme home to eat breakfast and went miri at about 11 30am..spend my time in the car S L ee ping, cos too tired wat..din sleep much the nyt before mar, reached uncle's home, everyone is home of course, bb (my bro..duh!) went to qq's room and spend time with wen si (my smaller cuz) while M Oi.... was in my sis bedroom korek-in her stuffs and her jap mags..loving those yea noe? and she have like..only a thousands of it..heehees. Papa and mommy also there for about an hr+ ba, adults talk ;) while talkin..papa took my luggage to wen si room, since me and hui yi gonna sleep there while i'm there..left and i dun even noe-.- i only noe when i go downstairs drink water.. seein so quiet.. ask uncle.. " papa and mommy go liao?" qq scold me agn say go long ago also dunno..ahahs. jie get ready to bring me up..and she took so long made me impatient i go and push her out of da door when she's still lookin at da mirror if her makeup's "perfect".

WEnt out at ard 1 30pm sia, pickd up les, her on and off bf of six yrs..in car immediately talk le ba, hehes..no gam gai business =) borrowed his N90 le, bt den..i dun like it mch -.- was supposed to catch a movie, en flux or something, forgotten the spelling....but din manage to catch it cos was late by 20 mins liao ler, cos les wanna go imperial repair his fon..which in d end..din get to repair cos his fren nt der -.- and then sis had to go Mega cos she had to take pants for wen si that's why late liao lor, just walked ard awhile nia...meet Frank and Evonne..les's twin bro and his gf wor, but they are twins dun look alike 1, not fun at all..=s

After tt headed to parkson lor..shopped ard..but din buy anythin lor, except a female mag..both me and hui yi went to those makeup counters there played and look ard..both of us loved Dior vry mch... jie ask me picked out something there which i love and she say she wanna buy for my bday..i choose da Dior lipgloss which i lov very mch..she record it down and look ard some more. then i wan the Estee lauder lipgloss agn.. greedy hor =P the makeup girl put da lip gloss on my lips ler.. so loving it can. =D after that told jie i was hungry and i say i wan eat Mac donald so she brought me there..long queue ah-.- then hor, meet ah Chern le, jie got intro to me like..about 2 yrs ago ba chatted on9 only one, then she told me dat guy is ah chern, when he saw jie, come over lor of course, they were also close friends lai de, in sec sch..i dun expect he will remember me ler, but when he saw me..he askd.." grace ryt..hui yi's cuz frm brunei? " hahas. jie also suprised before she told him it's me he himself say already..ordered foods and sit down eat. After tt went to Cd shops nia.. ngam ngam orh..there's this song playin.." i really love you.. i really love you so much, please give me another chance..i will really change.." then les ran over hugged jie from behind and sing it to her..bt too bad..she shove him away. hahas. jie bought a Cd lar, da song so damn nice, i go get the cd myself agn the next day =D after tt..les suggested we went to the pasar malam ma..well..what cn i say, de pasar malam so damn nice!?!?!? Rows and Rows of foods..alot of stalls to choose from agn ler? i could'nt decide which stall chi piku i wna eat, in d end, les bought me all -.- 1 stick frm each stall eating as walk..finish 1 stick bought another from another stall.. the chi pi ku in miri so NICE can!!! like.....SO MUCH way nicer lor, after eating went home..was supposed bathed le, but who knows le..both us tryin on clothes..well.. I AM anywaes..know why? cos jie kept on takin clothes outta her closet ask me wear this weat that and let her see..i screamed say dun wan wear mini's and skirts le, she actually ran after me and pulled down my pants..migod..paiseh le..after she gan yen.. and gave me lotsa clothes which some i like i wan and some she could'nt fit in anymore...after she finally satisfy with me, she let me to bath..thier home had no hot bath sia, just cold one, bt den..i acept the cold water happily leh.. hahas. cos i could'nt use cold water. after that we went to Shiki restaurent and had jap foods there le..I'm sorta dissapointed la.. cos de foods not very nice.. no jap foods i eaten here had been nicer than in Perth le..we ate like so many dishes on the train ting.. then we ordered one japanese style salad, oyster, and beef something le..all it's like.. $40+ per dish? Luckily nt us pay..les pay for it.. hahas. After eating we went to Imperial shop shop nia..cos afternoon din shopped mch cos jus go awhile..bought 1 t-shirt from roger wong..hahas. Love their clothes there very much lor..After tt still early ma..so we thought of goin tea..at first they say wanna go coffeebean le, but then full so change to Seahorse, d place very nice..d foods looks nice le, but full agn -.- in da end, just had coconut drinks at some coffee shops nia..went home after that already..spent the night gabbing le..in da end..i think we only went to sleep at ard 4am.=s

01 jan 06 # Woke up VERY early, at 6 30am ler =s cos had to go church. bathed and hated the cold water..makin me freeze eh! showered quickly, blowed my hair.. me, jie and wen si all getting ready in da same room..kept disturbin my beloved cuz nia..cos he kept on lookin at da mirror and do his hair.. kept on takin our hair produts agn, hahas...but it's ok.i dun mind le. Eat breakfast.. Then jiu mu say ohh. " see you 2 no energy liddat..surely lasnyt no sleep one lo! " we two jus smile smile nia.. went church..boring la there =( cuz i dunno people there ma..only gt 1 childhood friend..nt like my mom, she grew up there.. after the service, went home and picked up my jiu mu,she dun go church ma.. to some family gung hui lunch.. .me included too le! hahas. cos i'm my grandpa's granddaughter. =P Met with other cuzzies le, jin jin and siew hui.. and four of us sit together while qq, jiumu, and wen si sit other table..had so mch fun talkin and playin ard..still da same like when we're young.. they 2 always take food for us to eat..hahas. Well.. exclude the FEEDING anywaes.. got teased ler by all three of them le =( say when i young they always feed me eat food. But i hv no idea lor..totally no idea tt siew hui and jin jin fed me..even when i'm 10yrs old at thier home when grandma's sick and i was dropped at their home at tt time. Dun even remember hui yi ever feed me also lar, but den jiu mu told me have le, sayin hui yi always chase me ard to eat cos i always dun wana eat and ran away. hahas.

Qq brought us home after the lunch, was teasin wen si so mch in the car made jiu mu keep laffin and wen si so malu..hahas. went home look at my hp saw dear's msg and txt him baq, we sed wanna meet ma, then me told me tt he's at boulevard, after sendin wen si and his fren to some cafe, jie brought me der lo, was so excited can..bt who noes in the end ler...he in imperial Boulevard and i'm at the old boulevard..GEK DAO!!! i was standin in front of speedy for so long, dear msged over told me he's otw down so went in between the lift and escalator lor, sure see one ma!! who noes le, another msg came tellin me he's in front of speedy and din c me..shocked,i went to speedy and dun c him le..THEN only noe we go to the wrong places..haiss!!! Since missed liao, so we went to pickd up les first..and then headed to imperial..finally can see dear le, hahas..jie also got to know him lor..me and dear walked ourselves for while..went to shops lookin for nice clothes.. me go help him choose this clothes dat clothes.. hahhas. then he had to find his parents liao so me went with jie and les agn lor..walkd awhile oni, and headed to parkson.. told dear if he's comin to parkson msg me ma.. by the time he msged me, me already out of the carpark liao -.- so din get to meet le anymore lor..just went parkson awhile atually.. to get da cd and see jewellery.

Homed and bathed, and headed to micheal for steamboat...yes, the steamboat place call michael, and it's only sellin steamboat business..hahas. Omgg....the steamboat there..so T A S TY ah !!!! i wan to go back eat agn leh...nice untill...i kept stuffin foods, till jie scold me and dun allow me to eat anymore =s bt at least she brought me eat ice cream after that =P headed to boulevard le, think so too late la....cos dear left boulevard when i'm there, hahas.. me n jie b

ought hair accesories together wor..shop shop..then round round in da car..

Went home..we talked till dawn agn..=s hahas. so siok.. but we talked about serious things datnyt ler...then her fren called her.. while waitin..have'nt 10mins jie told me i already fall asleep.. hahas. i thought we talkd and sleep ma.. bt Noooooo.........i fall sleep without her liao..hahas.

02 jan 06 # Woke up get scold ler...both of us..say family breakfast then we din wake up..dats ard 8am..ahahs..was so rushin to get ready, we just wash face brush teeth and went out in our sleepin clothes =s went some place which my dad also always bring me..jiu mu say say us dun sleep agn..ate and go supermarket cos they wan buy groceries..me and hui yi jus stand there le, hahas..when reached home ard 10 45pm, hui yi went back to sleep while me just sittin downstairs watchin fei mao wif wen si. jie got ready at 11 30am ba, but we just get to go out at 1 30pm, why.......cuz she's so busy making up my face and doin my hair.. hahas..my hair took a lng tym ler..cos the 1st hair she did i dun like and the 2nd hair she dun like.. hahas. Halfway doin went kitchen lunch lor.. hais..got teased by my qq n jiumu agn, they say.." aiyeh, grow up liao still the same..eat so slow.." everone finish eating long ago me still sittin there and eat-.- and was sweating agn and jie had to redo my makeup..while jie waitin me to finish my food.. she do another hair agn.. but it cant see in pics tho..in reality..it's very nice =) pickd up les, and headed to boulevard and took neoprints..for two sets, we were there for two hrs! =s only left at ard 4pm ler, wanna get my coloured contacts 1... but din manage..and then went to boulevard and eat a last meal lo... at san fransisco coffee..les let me called a strawberry smooch which is like.. Rm$14.99? Rm..but still..and i ate mudcake =D damn nice can!!! decided wanna had that cake for my bday, askd the person, but they only do for 1 kG..and i need 2Kg..so dunno how =(

Only reached home at6pm le, and papa alreasy msg me say ask me standby by 6pm..me just REACHED.. have'nt even packed agn le.when reached, rushed upstairs to get off my makeup..jus halfway heard my pa car come liao eh..wash my face not-so-cleanly.. packed and go home lor..homed, talkd with dear, eat.. and scan pics for jie since she want it.. jie then called and we talked agn..slept very late lor.

03 jan 06 # TODAY !!!!!!!!!!! home..take an off day..was damn tired can.. =s chow mei...has ur eyes burn? lol~

2005-12-31T08:37:00.000-08:00

Today last day of 2005 ler....also exactly one year since i started bloggin neh...=x

Actually too much things wanna write about wat..jumbled feelings..or happening things these two days, but no time..will post everything when i'm home from miri yeah? can't wait for jie to bring me all ard tho not very happy today....

Anywaes... chow mei and vonnie.. dun let your ass burn yeh? kekes. Happy New year to Everyone. =)

2005-12-27T22:53:00.000-08:00

Oh wua lan, i have'nt been bloggin like.. for three weeks plus! =( if chow mei and vonnie no blow me i also no realise le, thanks worh, hehes.

let's see.. obviously i forgot most of the things i done le =s

22 dec # worked as usual lor, and oh yeah! chow mei..not need worry abt the convo when i went into the toilet la, so far nothing happens anywae =D after work went to get my shoes for empire..got a nice lovely shoe le, hehes.. and drop by to the new boutique chow mei intro me.. thanks alot wor my deaR friend, now i felt i'm gonna spend alot money agn.. hahas.. saw the boots she mention which is like.. P U R FE CT for my dress..and saw alot nice clothes too! Xin is so tempted =( makong brought me and yun shoppin mar, then after that we went to supasave, cos i wana eat kebab.. finally get the chance to eat my beloved kebab le!! * smiles * picked up Benny from Lumut..and headed home.

23 dec # Felt day was passin SOOOO slowly, was so excited about empire nia, work was ok, nth much to do..dear came to see me durin my lunch hour, felt so happy le, hehes. After that time started to itch agn=( till around 3-4 pm le, dno too excited or what, msg so much to dear askin if he got remembers bring this and that..in the end then settle down le ba after dear assure me=P went to get soap for dear and me after work le, since dear cnt stand perfumey thingies and i love it. hee hees. Went home, yun have'nt reach my home le, so took a long long bath, tot that my bro o mom will tell me ma, when yun's here.. but NOOO...when i finished bath she's long ago in my room..laffin at me for bathin so long =( We then tried on dresses and then got ready to go richard house for bbq-ing. hehes. Bbq was nice wor...wanna bbq agn le..hopefully sooner than later =( went home earlier, cos need to pack and so on..but in the end near midnyt then pack le, cos my cuz called me up askin if i wan the guess watch for my 18th birthday and then he talked wif mommy... straight after that talk with dear agn le, hahas. packed and went to sleep..

24 dec # My big day!!! wee hees! =D everyone so excited can, pk and dear came and picked me up at 9 am, then yun..and headed to labi or sg. liang? to the stall and eat our breakfast nia, and then on our way to Empire le ba, on the way me kept askinf if are we there are we there? haahs. Reached there ard 11am i think..and wanna check in..was frustrated at 1st le, with the receptionist..the stupid deposits and all.. so ziak sai..in the end, everythin is settled. Woo.. i should say, the BEST about the rooms is da comforter, so fluffy can! wishin to have one for my bedroom=( and the toilets.. yeah, i gotta say.. the toilets are most beautiful >.< me and dear one room nia, yun and pk another, so happy there was'nt any disagreeements at pk side.. phew..went bowling le, din get to play mch dat day, its my first time bowling..and i like it !!!=D played about 30 rounds nia us.. ahahs..time flies le, suddenly its 1pm so had to get back to the reception pei yun to get thier bedroom key, since their room wasnt ready in the mornin ba...after that everyone changed and we headed to the pools =D spend the rest of noon there le, so nice.. forgotten to bring my googles and is wearin my contacts into the water, i could'nt go underwater or go any deeper.. dear carry me swim here and there nia, hahahs. sO fun. =) after swimmin and playin went back to our rooms, bathed, and rest awhile nia, me and dear got some quality time together just the two of us=) hehes. Meet up, went to The mall for while, dear need to get something, while me and yun shopped ard for awhile, headed back to empire, bought the midnyt kingkong tickets, hehes. almost thought it's full lefting only the very front seats, spotted four seats together NOT in the front, and bought it=D Went to Li Gong hv dinner le, me wanna eat at pantai restuarent buffet actually..but not ngam taste for pk le, hais~~ really felt so syng, really hope one day dear will bring me back there and eat =( after eating, went to take pictures wors, time flies le, have'nt taken much but already nearly 10pm+ rushin to the cinema le, lucky no late tho, bought popcorns, and dear went just to buy the king kong cup.. gek dao-.- after watchin the movie, headed back to hotel and ZzZzz le ba..

25 dec # woke up around 7am+ ler, i think me and dear were movin ba, that's why..hahas. felt so xing fu le, d moment wake up can see dear beside me=D was in bed slackin till 8 30 ba, dear called yun and pk get up, and headed to atrium cafe for breakfast. the foods so nice can! but still..nt as nice as what i wishes at pantai lor.. after that me and dear decide go bowling ler, hahas. just me and dear take turns play. guess what? i won!!!=D hehes. me won dear le..hehes. After that, dear and pk go for basketball, to pas time cuz me and yun wanna tried out their sauna. wan the jacuzzi actually =( but they dun allow us wear towel go go, well..all girls anywae, scare wat? after yun and i wrapped up in towels, headed to the sauna room, saw de jacuzzi right beside, was standin there and decidin whether we should break the rules and just tou tou go in with towels nia, but who noes..the ppl ryt there watchin us, cheww......at 12pm check out le ba, and headed to manggis to do sime shoppin. was supposed to buy nice cny clothes le, but in the end bought one jacket and 1 adjoinin tshirt >.< also went to kiulap and ate at Chai gen xiang.. well..i'm hungry ma!! headed home, talked with dear awhile when he's awake, then both of us went to bed early le..

26 dec # stayed home whole day, was sleepin till 3pm le=P I'm suprised lasnyt i'm still be able to sleep.. and yes i was able to..ahahs. ate the leftover turkey myh mom made when woke up...chew..left just lil for me le =( they all eat the rest up liaO, so nice cn.. hehes! so many my pa's friends' wife's make turkey for us in the past, or in church or in any open house i went, mom's turkey still the best, proly bcuz she use like.. 6-7 big packages of the creamy milk to marimade the turkey first, before cookin and addin flavour..hehes.

hahas. my post damn long today. vonnie, chow mei, dun let my post set your eyes on fire yeh? hehes. Belated merry chrismas to both of you. muacks. <33

2005-12-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

Xin is very very happy =D tho got nagging thoughts at behind, tryin to force the thoughts outta my head ba..

Yesterday got off!! wee hees, so happy cn! hated being in the office, well..nw i admit..i LOVE sch life!

Went to miri with my family yesterday ler, wakey early early mornin and get ready, spent most of the time talkin of d fon with dear tho =P 9 am and we're on our way down, went to 2020 eat breakfast le, saw my big uncle and whole family!!!! so everyone sit down and eat and talked together, well..i din talk much tho, even to my lovely big cuz..cos...i was busy E A T I N G!!! Practically forgotten hw GOOD is miri dim sum *winks*

By 11am had to go for eye check up nia, waited so long ler!!! In the end it's me, my bro and mommy's turn, luckily my eyes are healthy..hahas.

Went to the old pa sak ba, cos wanna get the super fresh sugar cane water, how i wish BRUNEI got this kinda nice sugar cane nia, went to parkson and shopped aftr that, bought alot =D Even got clarins sample, hahas... kinda addicted to samples liao ba, lol ~

Went to imperial too, bt din buy anythin cuz i was to tired to shopped liao! hahas..just sit down and eat at kfc nia, and bought only one thing after that.

Reached home kinda late i guess and talked with dear, hahas... was supposed to go to sleep together one ba, then i opened my beloved SOPHIE KINSELLA novel, yeap.. that's right.. i got it!!! =D so happy can. hehes. just intentioned to open the bk and flip thru it, but without knowin was readin till late, forgot the time to sleep le ba, hehes.

Wakey very late today, bt who noes, dear woke even more later then me le..called dear wakey him up, hahas.. had a talk, eat moi lunch and papa asked if i wanna go seria, so yea.. went seria asked mandy and yun out, hehes. shopped ard nia, and went to coffeshop have a drink, anna joined us too =) had much fun chattin, it's been so long we never had a girl's day out le ba =)) ordered..err..french toast? nice ehhhhh....

Straight after that.. went to mien dang and hab satays, hahas.. but hor, kb satay still better than seria one lar, went yun's home aftr that, and took pics =D

Hrm.. kinda lazy to post it up nw, mayb tomorow, hahas..=D

* dreadin work tomorrow *

2005-12-09T15:30:00.000-08:00

不要因為也許會改變
就不肯說出那美麗的誓言
不要因為也許會分離
就不敢求一次傾心的相遇
總有一些什麼
會留下來的吧
留下來做一件不滅的印記
好讓
好讓那些不相識的人
也能知道
我曾經怎樣深深的愛過你

2005-12-09T14:14:00.000-08:00

Praying H A R D....

I hope evrything goes my way D way i planned,

Please let me suceed...

2005-12-06T15:26:00.000-08:00

Had a happy day le yesterday =)) bt sumhow, yesterday i'm enjoyin being myself in the office, wee hees...why? cos i'm all aloneeee.

After work yun mommy come pick me le ba, headed to kb Helen saloon to have our hair steamed. actually was s'posed to go maggie le, bt forgot that maggie is closed on monday!!! =s well, most suprising when we are there, vicky was workin there already! =D she is also the one responsible to wash my hair, hahas, she's alryt, at least better than the one who washes yun's hair, i always hated her. Saw quite a few nice curly hairstyles nia, can you feeell? my butt is itchy agn, lol =P

After steamin we head to bucaneer had our dinner, ordred two beef steaks and one mushroom soup to share nia, so filling=) really love that place, reminds me so mch of me and dear, hehes... tho we were so so so full already, but we still ordered cheesy garlic breads and ANOTHER mushroom soup and somehow managin to eat them all too, hahass.. full till practically cnt walk arh us =s

Ask mommy come pick us up, before that we went to Cd shops and check out, haahahs, hand itchy agn, bought 2 Cds le, but no regrets, loving it so mch! parade yun to the whole kb's CD shop nia, just to look for my CHRISTIAN WUNDERLICH album.. bt sadly... dun hv!!! =( who know wher got tel me kays? I'm cravin for it ..

Was now at work, feeling more and more sien, hating it more and more due to some reasoms, for you peeps out der, mayb you will think my job is easy..but INSIDE of it, u dun wanna know what happened..

the only HAPPINESS i felt today is only my lunch time..shih wei askd me and yun out to lunch together ba..went to pagolak and have our lunch, the food i order = SUCKS!! honestly.. took quite a few pics using shih wei's cam, hahas...hopefully i got the pics soon, speakin of pics, i din upload those pics taken few days ago hor.. hahahas...............

2005-12-04T18:20:00.000-08:00

Year's almost ending.. suddenly i thought bak to when my blog starts, i've been an active blogger for a year!!! wee hees! remembered my resolutions, decidin to take it out and read .. hahass =))

1)I Wana Let My haiR gRow..At leaSt tiL d Waist-aBov-a-BiT
my hair DID grow alot i supposed, but it's still nowhere near my waist frm my trimmin, and gonna trim it agn soon, once i have my COURAGE..

2)Muz leArN to Save monEy n nOt wAstIn theM S i LYk..
hrm, i never get ard to save any big bucks, but since dear scold me everyday abt my money usage, ive learn to controlled =D I now don't get the first thing i saw on the shop shelf which i like..learnt to think le ba,hehe

PaSs GcE..If gEt in2 SA,I muZ stUdy haRd frM NoW oN..8lEast all "b" s..coz i DuN WannA RegReT NymOr LyK mY GcE..I noE i goNnA faIl=(
Damn...i not only dun get a gd result, but had stopped sch as well.. hais.. si beh set pai..

4)hOpe My relaTIonsHip wiF him Can Get beTa,LoVe Him MoR,quareL leSs..
hrm, it does get better i guess..i'm contented ryt now=)) and i've made a few changes to myself, and givin him more love.. so yea =) would gv this, erm.. 40% sucess? lol~

5)I wAnNa RcV MANY MANYpRezzIEs Esp 4 mY bdAY..=P
well...i dun have mch pressies this yr, compared with last yr..i hope next yr will get gd pressies ba.. heehees.

6)DIET !!!!!!!!!
urm..let's skip =P

7)lEaRn tO conTroL My teMpeR n Not fLarIn it wheNeVa Av lIl tInGs maKe me anGrY
hrm, mayb just halfway..cos i kept most things in my heart nw, even with dear, my friends... i cn still look happy in front of them..let'sjust gv it 50% hahas..

8)HoPin I caN beG my DaD gimmE tAke licEnsE
totally forgotten =s

9)Can chanGe my LooKs
i think i look pretty ugly now dou...

10) HopIn Can b a bEtA DaughThEr...
hrm.... I DUN THINK SO !!! hahas..

I think i dun achieve mch le ba this year.. but it's ok,cos in my 17 yrs of life, i now had a aim..and hoping i cn use one year time to achive all my dreams, wee hee..

2005-12-03T20:56:00.000-08:00

As predicted, happy happy day =D

One of me and dear's wishes come true nia, or couple hp lines =) or rather, T W O wishes, we are goin to empire for chrismas and our 1yr 5month anniversary celebration..Wees! =P so happy can..

Went meet dear in front of DST when i'm off nia, in the process of gettin our lines, was kinda pissed nia, we waited the long queue for like...so darn long? before it's our turn? And when it's out turn, i dun have my IC with me, kns le, use dear IC cnot, so in the end called mommy bring my IC to me nia..

Head back to DST agn after gettin my IC, this tym the office is quiet, supposingly vry gd ryt? NO! our no. was skipped! had to wait like so damn long agn, du lan, wth..first come first serve right? pissed la..

In d end, it's finally our turn lor, and got our lines.. happy le!!! =D went to eat something cos i'm like..so so hungry since i dun eat for the whole day..and then headed back to office and spend quality time 2gtr =D

Evening, together with dear, adrain and makong we went moi nam have tea ba, den we go tamu visit yun yun, hahahs! Saw CHOW MEI too! After tt went home le =D

Haiss, dno why, i'm sick !!! =(( flu-ing and coughin arh =(( si beh nt happy with it, 2mr gonna go bandar shoppin with my peeps, weee hees!

2005-12-03T08:35:00.000-08:00

Feeling happy, H A P P Y, happy, H A P P I I I I today.....=D

2005-12-01T22:48:00.000-08:00

Felt like Crying now de ba.. In everyone's mind, in their hearts, am i so useless to them?

Why do whatever i wanna do, there are so many obstacles in front of me? Obstacles that i can never overcome..

I really felt so dumb, so stupid, so useless being in this world..

All i want in my life is to fulfill all my dreams, my ambitions.. but there's always something i can't overcome..All i want in my life is to to what i wanna do to fulfill my life to enrich my life, is that so hard?

Yea, i admit, i'm not some rich moneybags where i can do anythin by a slap og my hand with money in it.. like my BOSS, a gd example.. the richness they are, can practically suffocate your lungs..

I can never achieve my dreams..my life ambition which no one knows about.. Everyone treat me like i'm some kinda child who dunno how to take care of myself.. YOU ALL nv let me have a chance to take care of myself how do i learn to take care of myself?!?!?!.......

Now i have a aim in me, whateva i do, i will do my best, and i won't let regret comes to me, whatever happens agn ..

As for the rest of it...i will prove it, my aim in 2006..i must achieve all i want to do..no matter how painstakingly it's gonna take..i WILL.

2005-12-01T08:46:00.000-08:00

Woot, these two days busy till no time blogged nia..

Tuesday # Worked as usual, of course, can NEVER get away from it de =s no matter hw mch i tried. After work Yun and makong and adrain come to fetch me up de ba...disturbng and laffin at me while i'm talkin on the phone with a customer...after that, locked up, and makong brought me home to change clothes...Since they decided wanna tea for awhile nia, so went to yue yuen lor, since i'm c r a v i n g for the chao mee goreng der, damn nice can!! After that walked ard, and went to bodyshop 2gtr, that's when me and yun BOTH realise together..the so called " reality "... Fuggingly right in front of us..but i dun wish to talk abt it anywaes..

Suddenly, dunno what happen, we were just s'posed to go to Marilyn to SEE the cakes, well... See Huh.. in the end we sit down and eat two cakes agn, hahas.. bluberry cheese cake and chocolate fudge cake..the cheese cake aint all that up to my standard nia, but the choco fudge cake was nice can!! mayb gonna use that cake for our b'days? ahhas..since that's the cake we both agreed le...

After cak-ing, headed home nia, had a small accident agn =(( some old malay lady knock into our car, right at my car door arh!!! dun worry, i still alive..hahas..after everything is done headed home nia and had a B I G dinner agn!! =s Nt that it's nt nice or anythin, we had a fillin dinner, just that we are just sooo..Sooooooooo...Full. Mommy especially cook crab in honour of yun nia, good hors=) in the end, we still eat alot anywae.. hahas..

Spent the nyt in ma room, and talkin about feelings topic and suddenly it go to our past.. took all our old letters out nia.. and we were laffin so hard at our imaturity ..lol` realy could'nt believe that's how we were when we were young..lol`

WEdnesday # A G a I N, work as usual, kinda beh song if u asked me.. forget it la, den homed and take a bath, it's time me goin to yun's house for dinner.. AGAIN..her MOM also cooked crab for me..wua lua..our moms psychic issit =s at least the crabs are cooked in a diff recipe, mommy cook black pepper crab and her mom cook chili crab. hers is just as nice.. we ate the crabs for nearly One and half hr ar!! =D

Talked with dear on the phone nia, he could'nt study.. and then me and yun start takin our V a I n pics.. alot of them..ahahas.. will post them when i had the time aits..

ToDay # Dear's big big exam nia, hope he won't be nervous and will do well.. gd luck dear.. muacks =*

2005-11-29T00:05:00.000-08:00

Tiring arh..

Work as usual yesterday, after work went home, take a bath and eat papa's new recipe ( yeahs, my dad cook de!=D) urm..Thai salad tungfen..Was so darn nice yeahs! that i took one serving after another, by the time makong came to fetch me, had already have about f i v e servings? =P

Headed to Seria and fetch yun yun, wua la, this gur arh, tipu everone lar, fat liao fat liao, thinner than before got lar, hahas! Since both me and yun already full, and makong bo lui, me and yun decided to tried out cakes nia, for our bday de..ordered french fries, tiramisu and chocolate cheese cake to share together..BUT... the cakes tastes like s h i t.. no kidding >.<>.< went home str8 away go to bed lor, was so darn tired!

Tonyt yun gonna be at my home whole nyt for dinner after i work ba, wee wees! =P

2005-11-28T11:02:00.000-08:00

Wua lua, one week plus din blog le ba..=s miss my bloggin! but well...din get to blog cuz....was in office whole day kissin the comp screen would rather do something else when i'm OFF work.. lol`

Lemme see, what happened these days.. hrm..

Latest : Yun is back!! So damn happy can..wee hees=D having so many plans together, simply can't wait..=)) Was talkin on the phone with yun for hours nia last nyt, but din get to talk till morning like lastym cuz i'm simply too tired! =s so dropped to bed at midnyt already.. weets..

Yesterday spend the whole day at home nia, as for Kyrie, so sorry i could'nt go to your party.. veli veli sorry, dun hv transport ba..just spend the whole day watchin " love story in Harvard " . Was s'posed to go tea with mandy ba, but den hor, went out kinda late so dun wan le ba, ngam ngam dad askd me go ayamku restaurent eat ba, so NICE! Esp the black pepper beef, loving it, slurps! =P

Sophie Kinsella new book is F I N A L L Y out in Miri!! Could'nt wait to get it le ba, din managed to get it the lastym when i went to Miri, cuz my money not enough le, cost $72 =(( boo, next week will get it le ba, hee hees..

2005-11-19T20:45:00.000-08:00

Woots, finally my UNREST DAYS were over!!! Three days i din sleep much liao le =s

This week got to meet dear three times nia!! so happy can..first, it's the unexpected date at the mall, second, the night of his birthday which i gave him a biggie suprise, and third, today of course =))

Lemme start from the beginnin, on 16 nov, i din sleep well cuz i was thinkin what shud i get for dear, something that's MEANINGFUL and ORIGINAL.. at midnyt, wish him a happy b'day and suddenly..inspiration strikes, i always only get nice ideas last min =((

On 17 nov, work as usual, asked makong to bring me and he's ok with it, so for then, my plan is smooth =D picked me at 6 30pm nia, and rushed to shop cos i'm afraid the shop will close early, well, who knows ryt..=s and when i'm done gettin everything i need, proceed to his home le..wee hees..gave him a call, ask what he wishes to do now, and wallaa!! he said it out so i asked him.. " Dear arh, den u wanna consider opening ur front door lemme in or not le, cos i'm outside oh.." he thinks i tipu him agn le..hahas.. had a gd nyt with each other le.. and ard9pm went to urm..fresh air cafe with dear and makong have tea..both the boys talk about CARS so happily nia, i suspect they both forget i'm beside liao..ahahahs.. after that, went home, talk on the phone with dear for awhile.. and start preparing my pressie for dear le.. =D so din sleep much nia..

On 18 nov, nth mch happens, just the usual, but when i got home, i'm damn hurried and busy, till i dun even have tym eat dinner le..had to made many many stars for the first pressie..about 400+ ba..made till my hand so painful nia, do so mch at the same tym, not oni that, had to made the egg too >.< the egg information will be kept confidental, but while i was preparing it...all the pain i gone thru.. well.. i can just tell you it's not pretty and make you wanna gag =s Everything was oni finally done perfectly at 2 am nia..

Today, Went to work, asked makong to pick me up after that, and went to buy a cake for dear..and creep to the third floor of office and hid the cake ther..that's the second suprise i gave dear..he only saw it when we go upstairs =D blow, cut and eat the cake of course..wee hees.. and then we went into the room and discuss about our empire holiday stuff.. when he's mid doin research on the prices..i went into my bag and took out third suprise.. the pressies for him..reep behind him and gave it to him..wee hees...happy that dear loves evrythin i given him ..

Spend the whole noon with each other nia le, and evening went to pasar malam and bought chi pi ku 2gtr..wee hees...

and NOW, i'm gonna drop to bed early..=D

2005-11-16T21:26:00.000-08:00

Feeling so weak now.. Really dunno what had happened, was just goin thru my normal things.. and suddenly i jus vomitted.. not for once too.. i think i vomit about half an hour..

Felt so xing ku now.. and there's no one at home..

2005-11-16T18:48:00.000-08:00

Was feeling so empty, so neutral..

I've been thinkin, mayb i had accepted it after all..

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Day was aiight, but right now, i'm dead BORED, why? Cos i'm all alone at home, my whole fam had went to miri to enjoy, while i'm here, bored outta my skull, maybe i should'nt have cancelled the dinner, but i felt so sick being out now, i jus wanna stay at home and rest, i have not even eaten my mom's cookin for almost one week!!! =(( miss it leh..

My latest addiction : kimchi. Yeap. That's right. korea food. =)) FINALLY i gt the chance to try it, was absolutely superb i tell you. Well, for me anywae, Isabella is right, not all people can eat kimchi, cos it has a distinct taste, it's just whether you like it or you don't.. now, I'm simply addicted to it. Lui brought to office put in fridge so he can eat, since he's korean anywae, while ME, was feeling so addicted that i can't eat breakfast or lunch without kimchi. lol~ It's gonna finish soon, from the way i'm eatin..hahahs, best? It's originally from Korea in which he brought frm the last tour, hahahs..

I'm so short memory right now, i could'nt evn remember what i did yesterday, all i could remember is skippin work to have a luxury in the saloon, and watchin
the new Andy lau movie. It's really nice!! Totally no regret watchin it..wee hees.. and i absolutely love the Fulfilment of Promise necklace..it's so meaningful aites, but it must be original ;) just like how i wanted plato's eternity bracelet, but too bad that's only available in Europe, i think..

Finally got the song that i want frm Yus, really reflects me so much..

Sometimes
as I live upon my island
Cut off from emotion and its pain
That's when
I am tempted by the waters
Waters that can take me far away....

Yea.. get it?

So hungry right now.. no one to cook for me, hais.........gues i'm gonna go hungry stomach tonight...which is good anywae.. since i'm such a SHAME ..

2005-11-15T10:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday tiring day for me can!

Was at work yesterday, just the normal stuff, but the atmosphere still aint too good so i was just keepin quiet, till around 12pm Isabella brought me to bandar to work with her!! Wee hees!! was so happy can, cos can finally get away frm the office..

Before heading to Bandar, went to kaybee and help Isabella develop pics in Nan Yang, while she made some errands at Pan Bright, while I'm there, saw someone can, make me so si beh bad mood bah, and well, after awhile it's forgotten cos Isabella talked so mch with me, lol ~ talk till we were nearly at seria and have to turn baQ and return to kb AGAIN cos she forgotten take things frm her friend.. haiss..

anywae.. up we go again.. for the 2nd tym =s

When reachin Sg. Liang, or issit Labi? I'm nt so sure la, Isabella brought me to a stall with the best kueh tiau.. it was really nice!!! I wish i could have a second plate eu noe =(( And there saw Kah Soon with his friends agn, lol ~

After finishin our lunches, we proceed to Bandar lor, the journey was kinda fast le, cos i fell asleep in the car!!! Hahahas..went to Continental, Wing-on and Ken travel agencies, basically, all the outbound agencies nia, hahas..

Hrm, speakin of agencies, a few days ago my boss asked me to call to the three agencies and asked bout their korea tour pricings, was kinda stupid at dt tym, and i told Nelson of Wing-on my office No. !!! =s Hrm, i dunno if he find out the truth or what, when Nelson was talkin to Isabella about those korea tours.. the 1st thing they discussed is WHO asked for the korea tour enquiries..

Isabella : Hello Nelson, how are you, it's been awhile since we last met.

Nelson : oh yea! I'm doin gd, hw abt you? And whose this? Your sister?? (noddin to me)

Isabella : No No, she's just my assistant, xin xin ( she called my chi name )

Nelson : Oh!! your assistant!! she's pretty young isnt she.. * smilin with me*

(continue talkin abt non-related topics )

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Nelson : We are not sure about the dec bla bla bla.. ( forgotten sed wat) but we had a few people enquiring for it already, just recently GRACE had enquire for it, did she called ur office?

Isabella : No no, she did'nt ..so is she confirm at your there ?

( continue to blarrrrrrrrrrrrrr )

Hahas, what you think? Is Nelson suspectin or trying to imply something? lol ~

Then hor, after the last visit to Ken travel, where i spend most of the time in the toilet lookin at my beautiful hair =P Isabella went to meet her friends and dropped me at the mall to meet Dear. So unexpected nia..wee hees..and just walk here walked there lor, hehehes..

Was then picked up at nearly 6 45pm, and headed home, My lasteness cause my friends to wait me nearly one hr plus!!! =(( they're so so hungry, well, i am too..hahas.. took a super fast bath and headed out,i think the minutes i'm home isnt even more than 15min -_-

Head to Ayamku restaurent had our steamboat, finally leh! I can eat my Tom yam steamboat, was NICE!!! very very nice!! We had a vry gd time diggin our foods and all, untill....the waiter wanna kicked us out cos there is no morfe customers and wanna close up!!! Wua lan, see us lil kids good to bully har issit!! And it's only like.. 9 35pm? Apalah...We stall there till nearly 10 then we gan yen go anywae.. Hahahsss..

Round round abit cos we dunno wher we wanna go, and suddenly remembered our past times when we used to buy pints of ice cream and sit and eat at the beanch pondok. But too bad the stores are all closed so we settle for Cornetto instead. Went to the beach and ate in the car. But hor, i dun find it too enjoyable anymore.. cos I'm too scared =s in de end, so gome early lor..hahahss ...

Hrm, i still keep on cravin for tom yam steamboat =((

2005-11-13T21:01:00.000-08:00

Rebond my hair, wee hees, was so happy can got my hair rebonded =D

Was pretty pissed actually, cos i had spent like a zillion hrs in the saloon!!! Was there since 12pm nia, and left at 7 30pm, can you actually believe it =s That's about.. 1, 2, 3.......SEVEN hrs in there!!! Wua lua, i was so impatient, everytime Ah Ngo put on the shiseido cream on my hair i just keep on standin up, hahas.. all the saloon girls see me also laugh arh everytime my eyes meet theirs...

Oh well, no regrets tho, cos nw i got nice long hair, wee hees!!! =))

2005-11-12T19:33:00.000-08:00

Yawns! I'mjust so dead BEAT !!!! =D

Ok, I'm happy aites, Very very happy can =)

Yesterday : Was at work of course, But yesterday's work was pretty easy! Nothing to do at all, and was alone in the office, and get to off work early @ 4pm. hahas! Went home, took a bath and go to nina's openhouse early, stay there for quite awhile nia, chatted and catch up, and of course, ate alot of malay foods! All hot unfortunately, that'y why my damn cough wad back! =(

Then, ard 8:30pm, left and had tea with ah qiang, ah yung, ah tak, and brena le..then go long kai b'cos we were supposed to visit amy and emma and we're waitin for them cos their mom brought them out!! Waited so long nia..and officially stepped into their home at only 10 15pm!! =s well, it's alryt, went into da kitchen and talk to her mommy awhile, and then go to the living room join my peeps =P

It's so nice to get to see amy le, we have'nt meet for like, so long=s jus gabbed awhile, bt could'nt get to our usual convo's cuz we dun have any privacies =(( we were hopin we can meet up tomorrow and catch up * prayin hard *

When wanna get home dat tym, when we walked out of the door, there comes benny, marcus, adrain, reggie and makong.. and AGAIN talked and have a few laughs before goin home.. hahass, went str8 to bed after that, was dead tired arh -_-" and lookin forward to today of course =))

Today : Worked, the atmosphere at work aint too gd today tho =s then went out meet dear at 12pm..was feeling so happy le, after two weeks we finally can meet..hehehe =D

Hrm, talked and play ard with dear nia, den i got dear mad le =(( but I'm actually happy that he's unhappy with it, wee hees =D That shows he still really.. ahem.. kekeke..

Went to Riveria hotel and have our lunch, and went back to the office liao, wee hees, spend all da tym 2gtr at rooftop nia, but hor, me and dear so long, i never slap him before, and i accidentally DID today!! hahaas!!! cos he say something i never hear a guy say to me before, hahas, i laugh and slapped his face =s za dao.. luckily din hit vry hard nia.. hahaha!! lol ~ and most of all, i never thought even the most little-est details of me he will also notice, so it makes me vry happy =D even if its.... -_-" anywaes, sorry o dear =s

Went home, took a bath and right here bloggin =D only 7 30pm and i'm dead beat, wee hees.

2005-11-11T21:43:00.000-08:00

Whole's yesterday post deleted, don't ask me WHY i delete it, oh well..

Was really slacking at work, there's nothing to do for the whole week anywaes, just sit der and bangang, hahass.. and today was alone to work too.. No one gonna come to the office today, not even my two lovely boss.. u say good o nt leh, hahahs. .

2005-11-08T11:24:00.000-08:00

These days at work is really boring, boring, and BORING..

got nothing to do these days leh, felt like going home early=s

craving for my blueberry cheesecake leh =((

Day was upsetting agn, dunno why..

Since woke up already liddat..

Really tired of everythin..

2005-11-06T19:47:00.000-08:00

I thought i was having an ok day, but who knows how my day ends..

Woke up at 12pm, pretty late, get ready and went with my fam to my old neighbour's hse, visitin my childhood friends since kindergarden..was nice...da oldest fren, titi, was atually engaged already !!!wuaa.. she's js abt 2 years older then me leh..of course, she got intro her fiancee to me lor..hahahas..seems like a nice guy tho..

Came back ard 4pm bah, den go out agn, meet mandy and mike and makong..i thought we could catch up, tellin stories and all.. but who knows.. stories huh..ryt nw..I'm feeling so limp..totally no more strength.. I'm so mch in love with my boy, and i got said dat i'm with him for his money....cn u believe it..

And a so-called friend refuse to tel me the rest..well, it does'nt matter anywae..

Really felt so low..so limp.. like there's really no more care for me in the world.. that's really how i felt nw..

2005-11-05T13:33:00.000-08:00

Dunno Why..

For one week plus now..

I keep havin a very strong urge..

To eat BLUEBERRY CHEESE CAKE

and drink ORANGE JUICE..

But till now, i still can't get it

=((

2005-11-04T21:49:00.000-08:00

Boring day....=(( vry upsetting nia.. but now alot better..

Had a chat with yun, she helped me put things into prespectives, help me sort out my messy heart and clear my doubt, she's always succesful with me, this i can say for sure =)) and Yes, another time again, she suceeded lettin me see the prespectives, seeing things from another angle instead of something that's bluntly said in my face.. Nw i am more confident and stable.. all thanks to her..

Woots, guess what?Today sumone told me something.. " Your're my gurfren best fren, so you are my best fren too" Wuaaaoo, i thought this kinda guys EXTINCTS liao tim, but today, he proved that this sorta guys still EXISTS!!! lol~ guess who issit? Yusri ofcourse, Amy's hubby..Amy is sure lucky and i'm really happy for her * smilin wistfully * even their emails also same nw.. Amy_828 and Yus_828 ...wua lann.. hahahss..

Wuaa, Max gonna published a novel soon!! the multi-skilled in sociology, business, chemistry, biology, and lot more which i can't remember anymore, the max which foreign companies are fightin for him and was offered TEN MILLION a month job, the max i known since F3 and since then he always help me with his sooooo fabulous advcises max, gonna published his first novel soon, i get to c his artwork first-handedly a few days ago, so kambang dat he shared it with me..wee hees !!Saw alot of the artwork for his novel, the who and who characters and what the characters do n so on, i was stupid enuf to ask him " eh, the anime seem vry nice hor, i wan watch oso, wat name ah, i go buy at shop" wua lan..si beh paiseh until he told me that's his original artwork..mi god.... mentionin dis of course for a reason. Yours truly ME, gonna get his original novel first handedly when it's published, autographed too..hahass.. Nose also wanna go high high liao. Tho so multi skilled, he dun really live a xing fu life..as his beloved wife had passed away frm cancer this year..vry sad..

Wua lua, i ahieved something today!!!! Played solitaire for weeks ah, i could'nt complete it, today, for the 1st tym, i completed it!!! without any help too!! Learn and play by myself..haha, for you people mayb its nothing, but for me it's an achievement, I'm surely not someone who is so patient in learnin something, I cnt do it, i give up..wee hees..

Wuaa !!!!!!!!!! my dear bessie lil bro got GIRLFREN liao worh!! Hais, see him from young till now, guess he really grow up liao, first his voice changes and is taller then me and den keep on lin c me dat he taller, the he claims HE'S A MANN to me, now got gf liao tim !!! hahahs, when heard laugh till i can't breathe.. hahaha!

Hais, sang xing ah, i beg so long, tellin dad i wanna buy a beautiful toy dog...he dun wan buy for me..till now..i vry sien muk le..wheneva i go my boss hse got THREE beautiful toy dog i cn play with, i wan my own toy dog which i cn play n touch avday =((

Hrm..tired ah ..but there is something i must do tonight, if not will really cannot sleep.. outta here..woots =X

2005-11-03T23:13:00.000-08:00

Just baq from dinner with parents not long ago, having steamboat at ayamku restaurent..wee hees, the foods is nicee !!!!

But den i suspect, my sickness gonna be from bad to worrseee =(( pity me..but the belacan was damn nice!!!well..even if my sickness got worse or my heart got hole due to coughin..noone's gonna care anywae, especially him..Buurrpps*

Was chattin wif moi dear bessie right nw, had a pretty funny convo, lol~ our party had really excite us, we simply keep talkin abt how we wan how and how and howww...wee heees..

My sickness is killing me!!got a tons new songs, esp my dearrrrrr corrinne may songs, dying to sing with it.. wee hees, bt my itchy troat dun allow me to =((

Let's see...

Hrm, on second thought, mayb i should'nt paste d convo here, talkd about a few paiseh stuff i wish my dear would do for me..hahahas..lol~

I really dunno how long i can stand it anymore.. 3 days in a row i got harrased..get this.. HARRASED..whether its I'm at home or work..upsettin me emotionally and physically.. please god..help me thru this without losing it.. *praying hard *

2005-11-03T18:45:00.000-08:00

Really felt farked up to the max right now!!

From what i see, i thought friendship is more IMPORTANT..especially friendship which have been there for years, but hell no, i realise what my elder's (elderly friends) told me last tym is RIGHT..When there is MONEY concern, Friendship won't be there..Nt mentionin any details of what happen...let's just say ..

When money is concerned, friendship is just a word!

Got my first pay today, in my first 17 years, dat's the only thing i cn smile ABIT for nw.. later gonna treat my fam to dinner.. Think so me wanna open another bloggie agn ..cnt stand it if i dun vent out my anger..

Another thingie which made me smile abit wider?? i got my Corrinne may album!yeah ! love her songs to the maxxx!

Another thingie which made my smile another inch wider? the Bday party me n yun had been discussin for months gonna come true..its gonna be OUR BDAY PARTY.. gonna do it on chinese new year..weets...al my vip's will of course..be INVITED..and of course, my dear must be der too, lol~

2005-11-02T15:32:00.000-08:00

You Know What Day Is Today? I Just Know It's Not My Day..

Last nyt went to my lau pan niang bday party at Fratini, she booked the whole place down le..haiss, rich people andang diff horhs, well, the foods was ahem...DELICIOUS!!!! I ate so much diff kinda dishes at one tym, but was pretty boring for me, cos it's all thier family.. kinda left out nia..so gone early..it's ok..the delicious foods had occupied my smile for quite awhile =))

Saw my qoute up there?meaningful aiites?copied from Sean.Right enough, It's surely not my day, mornin mommy nagged me up and down about my sickness worsening, and was pretty slow at work, like snail arh...and when i wanna eat my lunch in da office? Two customers came..Tmd..very hungry liao, fork also in hand, gab so mch agn cause me need to eat my lunch at 12 30pm!!If i'm eatin out, i can go already..but too bad...someone lan c see me..so here i am ..stuck in da office..

Had a nice gab with me dear bessie just now..she asked me if i wan us (me and her ) to vacation in Hong Kong next yr, for another 18th memory.. =)) ofcos i say i want la, we even got to the point discussin the prices and so on ..ahah.. hopefully, we will be able to go..we had been wantin to go vacation 2gtr for like... YEARS.. =s

I Wan Korin May album!!!!!her songs are like..so so so damn nice..i want it, i want it, i want it!!!!!!!!!!Whatever it takes, i will make it be in my hands..

And to Mandy, it's not a prob to help someone grant a happy 18th bday wish does it?=P And I'm happy i could grant it for you..tho the cake is abit ...too tiny?Any gur would wants her wish to come true, me also no difference..But then..No one noe my wish! hahahass.. oh well ..u happy can liao..anywaes, d cake vry nice hor, damn damn damn nice tim!!wanna have it agn le..duno stil got o nt.. =P what's the cake name by the way.....?

Buut Buut.. outta here..

btw....

Happy bday Isabella!!!=))

2005-10-31T12:53:00.001-08:00

Just back from lunch with dear,eatin chicken rice..still have sm time..so thought i'll blogged in here..wee hees,dear gave me another suprised prez today leh,the fullhouse series which i always wanted..and last sat he gave me an vincci watch ..hehe..these 2days also smile till teeth also wanna fall out liao =D xin is very very happy =)

But hor,till now still sick le..ytd is the WORST..cuz got fever n so on.. slept till 4pm..n do my HW the boss gave me..and just 5 min ago ..he sed i did my HW gd. .no mistakes.. n did it perfectly..=D u say gd o nt leh ..hehes..

2005-10-31T12:53:00.000-08:00

2005-10-28T14:41:00.000-07:00

Wua la..gonna be a dead dog soon arh,sick saince yesterday morning dunno why today got a worser turn..Was coughin non-stop and i could'nt eat or drink anything due to my bad sorethroat..add on to my stomach cramps and shivering..hais.. BAD ARHHH.......

2005-10-28T12:53:00.000-07:00

Wua..nw only i realised i have'nt been bloggin here for one week plus!!!!=s i just thought i din blogged for like...3 days?lol~

Nothing much happen anywaes,have been workin for one week plus now and still can hang on it...no complaints for the moment =P

Yesterday a sex maniac bastard called me..turned out he's my friend's EX bf!!!oh geess..i never see guy as crazy sex till like this....hate guys who take girls for advantages,whether they're rich girls or sexy body girls..a guy just LOOKIN at a girl is consider a sin..wuaa..so serious..ahahahas..

Anywaes...the bastard's no. 8677660 so girls out there...dun be one of his stupid EX's and fall into his stupid sweet smelling nest!!!!~~

2005-10-20T16:23:00.000-07:00

From that evening onwards,i got nothing on my mind and there's no doubt anymore..Now i finally know my much and how deep my boy's love for me is..

People you out there,can you PLEASE stop pressurising about my decision.I've longed CHANGED. I no longer confide in people about my problems or anything anymore.So dun Fcukin give me more pressure than i already have.You're not me,you will never know.The only someone who i can fully at ease with is yun..not family..no one..If it's aint for her,now i would be suffocated already.She let me go for my OWN DIRECTION.She tells me there's NOTHING wrong in my decision..Because jmy FUTURE and HAPPINESS is at stake.. unlike some so-called friends i should mention,who actually say i'm STUPID aand WRONG.. get lost.

2005-10-16T22:57:00.000-07:00

Felt much calmer nw after talkin with dear..bawled my eyes out and dearr keep on reassurin and comfortin me..dear,sorry i overreact just nw..i really cannot stand hearin all of these..but i also know that other then scho0l,all ur time is fully devoted to me and nothing else other then workin for our small vacation..promised dear i would go sleep nw..muakss..love dear mch ...

2005-10-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

Haiss..a boring day sia..dearr gimme a call early early mornin..talked and went baq to bed,but cannot sleep baq tho,dunno why..was suddenly motivated today and changed my blog!!!nice or not?!?!=P it's made from the korea drama full house,i wanna watch it!!!but no one have ..=(

Dad bought laO su fen for mie breakfash slash lunch from alan khew's uncle store,the laO su fen there really the besT!!hahass..right after eatin..Dad and mom say they wanna go kb and see furniture,mie also followed nia,nothing to do at home,while boii boii just stay at hOme stickin his face to this lovely pc =P

On the way to kb,dad suddenly ask me hor.."xin xin,jefri bolkiah technical sch there got anything would you like to study o nt?those not engineering one?" suprised leh,but told him no..and so far this whole year my interest had only been hotel management and learnin abt beautician or hair or similiar stuff to this..then dad suddenly ask "brunei got hotel management give you study o not?"wuaa..now i kno he really jien qi wan me to continue pursue my studies..-_-" but i've made up mymind liao,even if i cont study..it must be something i'm interested in..no more school life which i don't like..ahahsss..

Went to shop see see talk talk with mie parents,then horde dad over to mum's bakery and bought a few of the chicken floss breads which i'm totally in love with!!Complained that one piece of bread can buy one whole roll of plain bread agn..-_-"

Homed,read storybk and eatin my lovely breads..after two hours,hungry agn leh!!luckily mommy got cook homeMade mee for everybody,ate it but felt hungry AGAIN...really shitty ah..dunno what's wrong with my bowel today,cooked instant poridge..damn nice!!=))

Just now hor,dad came into my room agn to talk to me,i thought he wanna ask me about studies agn,but no...his expression was so serious,i thought what agn...who knows.. "xin xin ah,2mr you go with me to grandma hse okay?gu gu wanna see you" lol !!! so i just say ok lor.. hahass...look like i got a plan for tomorrow!!i'm soOoO so totally lookin for any chance or anythin to do just to keep my troubles and worries about my studies and school..

2005-10-15T22:05:00.000-07:00

Morning - woke up early,dressed and mommy send me to a company to give my CV..bAq to to take a nap,and went with mom to seria again to see mandy awhile..her shop is..one word.. BORED -_-"

Noon -Meet up with dear..spend the few precious hours together..

Evening - Homed at 5pm,took a quick shower,hurriedly did my hair..and mom send me off to YY..was kinda stupid,search for my friends could'nt find them,in d end,realised that they're at the other wing whih i never do before,all smss go neh,about 30+ peoples?!?!woots..many till need to connect about 5-6 tables..wuaa..ehehs..all my peeps have to wait for the sungkai prayer before they can eat..i noe i noe..i should respect..bt..im just SO HUNGRY!!!!=(( but then,they dun mind anywaes..nazri keep ask me to eat first eat first..lolz=P jun ryan,the only NOt smss was there too..and he helped us take loadsa pics..eat about 2 or 3 courses nia me..cn imagine hw hungry i am liao..

Night - around 8pm,makong msged me tellin me he's goin to amy and emma's hse and asked me if i would like to go..since finish eatin and there's nothing to do anywaes..so go lor..he came pick me n we go amy hse..was there till 9 45pm..cnt tahan anymore..too tired nehh..so go home..and here am i =))

wanna take a shower and dropped to bed..ZzZzz..

2005-10-12T20:27:00.000-07:00

wOoTs..pan wei buo's bu de bu ai is darn nice..weehees=) just homed from goin buffet dinner with moi family..the foods today are nice!!darn darn nice..this sat got another chance to eat agn..the smss gathering..wOoTs!~

Hais,till 2day have'nt start studyin nia..don even understand the break even analysis!!=(( mayb will get julre or isa to teach me on sat..actually..plannin to study this noon larh,but then hor..slept from 1pm till 4 30pm-_-"

bah..dat's it liao bah..nth to blogged this days norh..

One more ting...

happy birthday ah leng leng!!!!<33

2005-10-12T17:29:00.000-07:00

C u t E ......

2005-10-11T14:37:00.000-07:00

Hell..kaybee and their mega sized mouths..the whole damn town was spreadin all those untrue rumours..No wonder someOne was so pissed,well..now it's my turn!i don't give a damn about what YOU PEOPLE wanna say..i have to admit..me as a kaybee person also si beh pai seh to be one..What..you people had nothing to do but sit around in coffee shops and ruinin people live's issit?people like you i DONT NEED..!!why don't you just stuff about a dozen elephants into your mouth?Because that's the size of YOU ALL mouths!!GET MY POINT??

What the hell i done wrong.. YOU PEOPLE have absolutely nothing to do except sittin around sayin people's untrue stuff..and guess what i gave you when u told me?all i said was.. "kb ppl and their big mouths".. and this BASTARD was sayin " you better becareful how you talk!" then was really pissed to the max and said "if u wanna ask me becareful my mouth then dont talk to me la!i din talk to you anywae YOU are the one botherin me!" wel..see if i care! Fcuk it..you are the one botherin me..talkin to me FIRST while i'm mindin my on business..Wth ?!?!?! watch my mouth?watch yours first!!!

2005-10-10T21:09:00.000-07:00

wOots,decided to blogged before goin to sleep,aint feeling too good,din study again..haiss..felt really hopeless about my attendance..=s if really cannot promote..my dear peeps really gotta take few truckload tissues to heal me=(( To make matter worse..i lost my whole darn business file FOUR days ago and i only realised it a day ago-_-" sheesh..really could'nt study without my notes..was lookin all over for it at sch todae..but someone STOLE my file..anyOne whose holdin it...give it baq to me pleasee..i need it..

Day was aiight as usual..ever since puasa school ended at 11 50am..*grins* bt still...felt day was passin each day sloooooowwwwlllllyyyyyyyyy..i just wanna wait till the tym i could meet dear and have a good tym agn..

Went home..sat in front of the tv and pc and slack there whole noon..dunno why hor..was so motivated de..i wanna changed my blogskins and my friendster profile,decorate it b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l-l-y .....but den lehhhhhhhh...espeed like shiat todae arh..totally no use..haiss..when i'm so motivated and rajin the toopid connection just dun wanna work with me...

Hrm...should i give up sch?should'nt ryt..i dunno..haiss..i noe KYRIE will miss me..lolz..yo kyrie..why are u absent todae?u missed my fascinating biz presentation lehh..ahahah..

anywaes..i wonder if... CARA JOSHI gonna read my blog like she read anna's blog..tee hee hee..if got hor..to this CARA JOSHI..prove to me and anna and avone elese ur the TRUE CARA JOSHI and not a FAKE!!!wahhahaaaa!

2005-10-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

Mandy left my home a few minutes ago..here i am now..bloggin..supposin to be vry happy today..but something ruins it all.. but let me blogged about yesterday and today anywaes..

YesTerDay.....
was out with dear after sch yesterday..had a happy date yesterday with each other..was supposin to fo to tamu and have our early dinner..but instead..dear bought me to this cozy expensive restaurent at riviera hotel..the foods and atmosphere was vry nice norhs=)) but i think dear was kinda annoyed that i kept on complainin about the price..and i could'nt finished my foods agn..felt vry guilty =s went home..took a bath..watched tv..supposin to start studyin..and then hor..I LOST MY DAMN FILE..!geezz -_- i hoped i can find baq my file..or else really cry =((

ToDay.......
woke up kinda late..ard 1pm..but 8am dear called me up and we talked talked..meet wif my dear fren mandy chong..her uncle came to pick us up..was so suprised!!!knew her so many years le..1st tym her uncle bring us..tee hee..went too suki and had drinks..story story and went to saloon had my haircut and she did her free hair treatment =P after that ..we went to bodyshop ..see ard talk with friends awhile..and get alvin to send us home..well..to my home anywaes..just hangin out talkin and she went home..

Haiss..was kinda annoyed now..not filing any details here..unless i knew it for sure..and that tym..i'll really explode for sure..

2005-09-27T12:36:00.000-07:00

just finished up my lunch..decided to come in and blogged early..

skipped school today leh,cos not feeling well..had two days holiday proclaimed by yours truly!!wee hees!!2mr is also another holiday for me,teacher's day leh,lazy to watched my fellow schoolmates dance and so on,so...another day hol for me!=))

tho it's a two day hol for me,i aint feeling too good tho..very very moody =( havin unknown reason stomachachse for days,a big ulser on my lips plus startin to have chest pain and difficulty breathin AND quarrel with dear makes it worse =s

Lasnyt,i was supposed to call him,called over such long times,over two freakin hours then he pick up my call..two hours le..ask any girl,who song?... so was abit unhappy when talkin and i aint feelin well so was'nt upbeat as usual..upon hangin up,told him i aint feeling well..guess wat?he dun even give a damn..any DECENT boyfren would hv been worried and so on,bt my own boy msg REPLY oso dun have..how wud you feel?song?Till 10pm+ txted him agn,replied like nothing wrong,and dat's not all..he actually THREATHEN me that if i still talk wif him like i did lasnyt when he called me 2nyt,he rather don call or just talk for a short while..wua lan...

This tym,really mad till the max!txted him baq and giv him an earful exactly HOW i felt..he said.."im resting now..gdnyt" wua..really heart boils,dunno it upsets my body or what,suddenly i'm just chokin and keep gaspin for breath..mommy rushed into ma room and asked me what's wrong.Told her and she went to find my med..could'nt find it tim,mom called to called up dad frm his meeting and tell him my condition and asked about my med..took 2 capsules..and went to sleep already..

Dun even start talkin about today,everytime i thought it baq,sure felt chest very pain and cannot breathe agn..beta let the topic to rest.......

2005-09-27T11:29:00.000-07:00

xU ruO XuaN-haO xIaNg nii

hai mei wang le nii zhe me duO tian mei jian ;
ke shi wO chOng xiang qi nii de shen yin zai wO er bian ;
jing tian xing qing haO ma ;
shi fu bu yu kuai ;
yaO yi jie dOu kan de kai ;
shi jie mei yOu tai huai ;
sui ran bu zai ni sheng bien ;
wO de xin yOu yi tiaO xian ;
lian zhe nii ; qian zhe nii ;

haO xiang nii ;xiang daO yuan yi xiang xing ;
wO jiu bi shang le yan jing nii zai na li ;
bie wang le wo men de yue ding ;
yi zhi dOu zai wo xing li ;
bu guan nii zai na li ;
bu yao wang le yOu duO ai nii ;

bu yaO wang le chi fan bu guan duO mang ;
bu yaO wang le kai che shi hOu yi ding yaO wang qian kan ;
qi shi wO zhen de hen kuai le ;
yOu nii yi zhi shOu hOu ;
yi zhi zuo daO le yii hOu duO wan zhe nii de shou ;
sui ran bu zai ni sheng bian ;
dan wO zai ni xing li mien ;
wO yuan yi den zai nii ;

wo haO xiang nii ; xiang daO bu nen hu xi ;
xiang daO quan sheng mei li qing mei you guan xii ;
nii bie wang ji wo men de yue ding ;
yi zhi dOu zai wO xing li ;
bu guan nii zai na li ;
bu yaO wang le wo yOu duO me ai nii ;
wO ye yi zhi zai zhe li ;
bie wang le wO you duo me de ai nii .

2005-09-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

Feeling so suffocated..

skipped noon classes in order to rest..

Chest pain N can't breathe again,

Eatin medicine does'nt have any effect at all =((

Think so gonna lie down and rest Now..

2005-09-24T21:36:00.000-07:00

Haiss,my sleep is ruined!!well,not exactly larh,it's just kinda nt suang when i'm tryin to enjoy my last hour of mornin sleep as much as possible before having to wake up and go to sch..but NOOO~~ while i'm sleepin halfway the electric current stops,causin no air con for me=((

But still,sleep till around 6 45am then gan yen wake up ang get ready.Went to school as usual,homed,bathed and mommy drove me outt meet dear=)) times at school seems like it's crawling..........................

Before going to office,dropped by in kk.chan shop to photocopy some business papers required for mon's lesson,teacher so "ba bi" leh,got txtbk still hv to photocopy..waste money oni nehs..

At office,it's about 2 45pm liao lorh,nt wastin any tym of cOurse,spend every minute as much as possible=)) wee hees,there's only us alone in the office,sO can do whatever we want =P

Did something on dear leh,when he went out of the room to see if anyone had come upstais,did something really....seemingly "desperate" at him =D like a desperate wife hungry for hubby's attention..lols~ thinkin about it keep makin me laugh,hahahss!!!=D That had really put a smile On my face=))

We went to tamu and ate there leh,eat so muchie "chi pi ku's" woOts..finally dear allow me to eat leh,hehess...eat so much agn and went home together..wee heess..

Dear called me up after he reached home,we had a small quarrel lor=(( but We're ok agn in the end.=)) I'm really thankful there has'nt been any huge fyts recently..it's just minor rows and parched up almost ryt after that..I'm really thankful for it..

Watched tv after that,came on9 for awhile nw..see hui yi's IM me.. "Oi,xin xin!!!what's wrong?What had happened to you?!!?" wuaa..she seems so zhing zhang,bt too bad she off9 liao,proly had dinner with friends or something..so just drop her an email..i know she would see it ltr anywaes,so no nid msged her..ehehezz.

OkaY,that's it for now,wanna read my dearrrrr fren's email nw,pen off.....^^

2005-09-23T22:36:00.000-07:00

Read dear's post makes me go ROFL larh,lols~ wad kinda post is that?HAHAHA...

Hrm,actually..i did angry leh,when i mc you ur mob off..thought what agn,on the way in de car to kb i keep thinkin how i gonna bite ur ass off ler..but when see you,you straight away already tell me..so i thought..suan liao lor=P

Meet dear today ler,finally can see him liao..hehehes,day was good,weather cold enuf=D and lunch at kfc..saw kok vei and siao xiang oso leh,wOots....so en ai=))

Ard 5pm,left dear and wait mommy come and she brought me to milimewah bought a few stuffs,so just shopped ard lookin at clothes nia,i never noe hor,a place like milimewah gt cute clothes at $5.90-_-" it's the same shirt which i used to wan in another shop,except the cartoon is diff,for the price of $25..my gawd arh..those who wanna have cute clothes wif bargains can search ard the $5.90 ladies section bin..ahahss..

Reached home,took a bath,watced tv and dear called me up awhile..=)) he must be studyin nw..gd boy..hehehss..

till here for 2nyt..stomach's really givin me alot of pains =((

2005-09-21T17:36:00.000-07:00

Ok..I'm baQ to blogged!!have'nt been bloggin since the last few days,nothin much happens to blogged about anywaes and was pretty busy watchin movies!!=D computer and online simply not my priority right now..

Changed my layout,my blog song.....like it?No?get out!!!=D jus kiddin..wee heees,jus simply feelin vry sian with the old blogskin,so changed this one..actually wanna use the "shooting stars" one,the designs are nice,bt somehow,the structure is kinda off..so used this instead..cute?i think vry cute lerhs,tho i admit i'm nt someone who knows how to appreciate art(said so by safrina when she ask my opinions on devianarts=s) but i do love lil kids pictures alot..jus PICTURES..=D

Okays,did'nt do anything much these few days,it's just always school,homed,bath,find something to eat,tv,dinner + tv,on the fone,tv agn and goes to sleep=D that's how my life have been these three days.Not complainin it cause i love it!!!hahass..

And also,these three days did'nt have any quarrels with dear,and also felt abit more calm than i expected,sometimes still vry huan zhang,but it got tamed=))

LET ME TELL YOU...........
I DO NOT work as an part time entertainer.For these people who DO NOT treat me like a fren,den only looks for me when you are BORED or WHEN YOUR "BUDDY" LEFT YOU, you are NOTHING but an ASS..don't expect i'll give you face... why should i be your entertainer?have you reated me like a fren before?!?! if you're my friend,no prob,i'll entertain you,but people like you..get lost..get it?

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....!

Ok..poppin outta here,lazy blogged so mch =D my tv's more important..ahahsss!!

P/s-->kyrie,sowwie i stole ur lunch ytd,angry ahh?=D

2005-09-17T19:10:00.000-07:00

Was pretty tired,so just dropped a small blog ryt nw=))

Day was pretty mch same nehxx,just spend the daY with dear and We went to kfc eat..like..AGAIN=p

But nw this two days have ended,have ta wait till next fri before i can see him agn,i just hope my heart will remain only "calmness" till the day we meet =((

Btw,thanks ALOT to kyrie leh,always helpin me this and that,always tried his best to let me have all the stuffs that i wanted from other people's blogs..tQ vry mch yeahs=D See ya in sch on mon..=D

2005-09-16T19:14:00.000-07:00

Day was aiight..din sleep mUch thO,could'nt sleep..slept abt 3am den woke up ard 6 30am agn,vry unrested norhx,datym dad went to toilet and droppey by in my bedroom see me sleep=s asked me.."xin xin,mornin lor,stil cannot sleep?" that tym i really thought i dun sleep till mornin,was super blur so answered him "yealorh,cnot sleep ohh.." hahasss..

wOke up at 9 30am agn,get ready,watched abit of tv,decide which new cloth i wanna wear,since i bought about..six clothes?=D Go out with dad and meet up dear..We had a small fight leh,in de beginnin..bt patched uP and day was smooth after that,till before i had to go home had a row agn-_-"

Went to kfc and eat leh,so many foods,eat so mch till I'm really really full!wee heess,dunno what's wrong with me this days,so totally addicted to kfC and jolibees=s But then,think sO we should have gone somewher eat lorh,cos dear got a big leak in front of his mouth,scare ltr bleed and was even more pain after eatin fried foods nia,asked him dun eat the chicken "pi" and chili sauce dun wan listen to me agn..=((

Went baQ to the office,rested awhile and fell asleep with each other for awhile..lol~ Before go home had another quarrel agn leh,so beh song that i pinch and kick him but all he did is hug me tytly in his arms =D Was so touched and happy he did that..wee heess..

Despite we had quarrels,i stil felt vry happy that i could finally see him today,at least,my heart calms down alot more nw..=)

tomorrow gonna meet up dear agn,gonna watch abit of tv,have a well rest and meet up dear 2mr..lookin forward to it=))

2005-09-16T02:13:00.000-07:00

hab you eva try controllin ur tears for so many daes..
tryin your best not to cry..
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try acting so happy when u're out..
where deep down u're feeling vry miserable?
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try findin ways n means to find wat the person you lurve is thinkin
yet when he's reply ish so "warm"
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try talkin on da fone wit someone else..
and the person is actually tellin you all dos words you wana say to someone else?do you know how it feels?

hab you eva try crying out loud in ur pillow..
hoping dat all the pains will go..
do you know how it feels?

izzit right or wrong to be serious about someone..
its really hurtin me so mch so mch..
i wish somehow someone would take me out of tish world..
i hate being over here...

why does the whole world know dat i'm upset..
and not YOU
why those showin care n corcern...
ish not YOU..

wuaaa,exactly hw im feeling!!i post this up in my other blog months ago,and when i reread it baq,then i saw all of these..my gawd-_-"

2005-09-15T21:43:00.000-07:00

Grace is 75% happy!!!
I'm really tired already so i'll jus wing it aiight..

Okay,i'm suprised,thought i'm just gonna slack at home todae,bt dad woke me up and asked me if i would like to go miri today=D weetss..so happy,so get ready quick and we're on our way liaOhs..

Stopped by Sing Ya Guin food centre before headin to parkson..shopped ard there,bought a few stuff and then we went to the imperial,shopped some more..tried on many clothes leh,till my hair oso messy like hell liaOs,hahass..Also bOught some Cd's and Dvd's all paid by dad ofcourse =D

before headin to boulevard,we ate at Kfc leh,so nice de chicken,wanna eat fried chicken for quite awhile liao lehh,hehess...

By the time we're at Boulevard,My feet is aching So So mch that i give up shoppin already..jus sit on da bench waitin for my bro and mommy as they went into cd and book shops..

Companied dad went to supermarket and choose my mooncake,and while i'm walkin over it,der's this guy who was choppin furiously with a wood in de supermarket..weird ma..so stared at him lah..he noticed it and asked me.."xiaO jiE,Ni XianG yaO maI Zhe Ba DaO ma?" worst pick up line eva!lol~ but my mom is laffin hysterically tho-_-"

Wanna buy dear a pressie actually..some were outta stock,some nt ngam,too sissy to be precise,i've given him enough girlish pressies liaO,so dun wanna do this agn..hahass..And saw sOme nice shirts that i thought i could buy for him,bt impossible..cuz my dad is shoppin ryt beside me the whole day!!!=( So in de end din get anything for him..sowwie oh dearr..

ReachEd home about 8 45pm,msged with dear awhile,and makong dropped by my home to take his thing that he asked me help him buy..luckily my dad nO say anything at all..Wee hee=D

Haiss,really si beh beh song arh,i'm supposed to call yun while i'm at miri..but then i 4got!!!!=( chuO guO a chance to talk with her..boosss..anywaess..really gotta bath now..feeling vry stinky lehh=S

2005-09-14T20:49:00.000-07:00

Day was aiight,bt nt really happy,just abt 40% happy=s

Woke up ard 10am todae,doin absolutely nth just playin dynomite in my comp and had kolo mee which dad tapau for me for breakfast..

Showered and go out with dad in the afternoon.There isnt about anything to look forward to anymore,my life had become ruined from the day HE dun treat me like his gur anymore..Van taught me to accept some facts about our own boyfriends,and to live on not lookin baQ agn,was tryin and learnin to do dat=D

Anywaes,company dad go supasaVe bought groceries,lucky he dun ask me to push trolley or take the basket..I HATE THAT!!!!Bought alot of junkies for myself=D good thingie about goin out with dad?he pays for it=)) Dad bought me a kebab too,which i ate in the car on the way to seria..*weets* really miss kebabs leh,so darn long no eat that liao!

Dad was supposed to go to grandma's hse bt dropped me to shop since i dun wanna go there..but before that,i had to help dad buy hallocard and zippi card for my grandma's ahmah..haiss..walked the whole plaza building arh,dun have $5 zippi card..and dunno why the hell dad wans a $5 zippi and $5hallocard..toOpid=s

Went to shop after that and go take my pweecIous 6680 frm the display and use=)) felt so happy usin that mob,dunno why..Went to soi heng and had barley drinks and a bowl of "sui jiaO" to share while we catched up with each other..

Before goin baQ to the shop,went to cd shops and bought few vCd's agn,well..mandy bought it anywaes while i'm just browsin..weets..i really wanna buy those korea dramas leh!!my heart already itchy for the dramass.. *god,pls let alot of money dropped frm the sky=P * super lame ..hahass..

Went baQ to the shop and watched "amityville horror" ..a horror movie,i'm nt sure if this is the exact title,bt i guess u wud know what i meant ryt=)) oh man..the movie is so...HORRIBLE!!!=(( it's excitin alryt,bt way too damm scary!!!It's so scary that we hugged each other..worse,we shrieked about two tyms in front of the customers and they were laughin and smilin at us!!haiss..si beh paiseh..=D

Dad came ard 8pm and pick me uP after his hours of being at grandma hse,dunno got what to do there leh..so long..hahass..and here i am!!!bloggin!!!

Dunno gonna do what tomorow leh,haiss..........................................

oooohzz..btw..

HAPPY BDAY IMASS!!!!

2005-09-13T19:13:00.000-07:00

headache nia,dunno sleep too mch or wat..woke up ard2pm plus nehxx..was super tired=s but nw still tired,hopefully can sleep early 2nyt=))

due to my overslept and no msg no car go lumut imas's bday hse..stayed at home and slacked whole day..haiss,shOuld have go out nia..felt so stressed and moody =((

Got the song i wanted!!!yeapiii!was listenin to it whole day lehss..and got crazy enuf to get the lyrics!!!=D here it is..

Wo dao le zhe ge shi hou hai shi yi yang

Ye li de ji mo rong yi dao ren bei shang

Wo bu gan xiang de tai duo,

yin wei wo yi ge ren

Ying mian re lai de yue gang la xiang shen ying

Mai wu mu di de zou zai leng leng de jie

Wo mei you ni de xiao xi,

yin wei wo zai xiang ni

Chorus:

Ai wo bie zou, ru guo ni shuo, ni bu ai wo

Bu yao ting jian ni zhen de shuo shu kou

Zai gei wo yi dian wen rou

was talkin wif yun yun ryt nw,debating abt who is jay chow girlfren and why this why that..so lame..lolness to da max!=P

2005-09-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

was super tired leh nw=s din sleep whole nyt..so kinda heahache nw and icould barely even open my eyes leh=s was talkin on the fone with someone HEATEDLY till veinds also boil leh=( and then just played comp games from dawn till 10am,get ready and go out meet mandy chong=))

Mandy's having a few probs lasnyt,and needed someOne to company her,so went out and pei her lorh=)) she's really goin thru a rough time,can really understand her feelings nw,cuz i'm always having this same prob on and off eva since me with dearr..so know the feeling whn someOne is really really in pain and was nearly breakin,bt i felt vry bad as a friend sia,cuz i cnt hv mch advice to gv her,asm myself having this prob since last yr also never have ans,bt i wil always be by her side when she needed me..that's what best friends are for..ryt?=))

spend the whole mornin with her and with a new gur who came for work 1st time today..named zeti.=)) the guy(forgotten his name) was fired due to his lack of "responsibility" at shop "laff loud loud" and zeti replaced him instead.was a vry friendly and kai lang gur,and vry CONSIDERATE too!!=)) unlike us..hahass.dat tym when we're all sittin down execpt shwu wen and zeti mar,so i said to her "zeti arh,sit down with us larh,dun stand der" and she point at wen and say"she's abt to eat her lunch,hw can she stand up eat her lunch?"wuaa..so pandai wei other ppl zao Xiang,if any of us,sit down ord lorh,hahass!!=P

One very gd advantage of having friends workin at mobile shopsor you youself workin there,cn curi curi take the mobs there to use!!hahass!I go take the Nokia6680 and use leh,use till i sonngg!!!was seriously fallin in love with dat fone!tho it's NOKIA..used it the whole day,nt vry get used to it so abit lut lut abt d programs and keep sendin wrong msgs to the wrong ppl.bt LOVEEEEEEE that fone leh!!carry it ard me like a baby the whole day..when walkin also arry it show off here and there=P who wanna buy me that fone?hahass!!

Had lunCh with mandy at soi heng,ordered 2 bowls of "sui jiaO" and 1 bowl of kolo mee to share.the sui jiaO soup vry nice worh,and drank mandy's barley..hahass.sweet sweet..very niCe to drink leh,when go seria agn must drink agn=D after eating and payin up went to plaza walked ard,bought some vd's.."the 4oyr old virgin" and "house of wax" these 2 movies hab been in my list for quite awhile nw!!=))

Went baQ to the shop and then me and Anna company shwu wen go banked in the company's money while mandy watched the shop.but before we go,we took few pics at da shop!!gt it developed ord in ma home!=) I look kinda ugly leh..haiss-.- after went to da bank,went to yy develop pics and dump into my god bro..kenny!!hahas!lukily he rmb me leh..wave wave at me from the 3rd floor plaza=))

Watched "the 40yr old virgin" after all errands are runned.it's damm hilarious!!!all five of us girls were laughin so darn loud!=D den hor,ah baO came and "visited"..wonderin what's all the commotion abt..i wonder if we're really THAT loud tho,coz he said he could hear our laughter all the way from his shop!!!!=s

Day was actually ok..till i go home.Started thinkin all the probs agn..felt really pain when thinkin of it..

Actually should be having gatherin dinner for ivan's bday nw leh instead of bloggin ryt here=s bt den felt vry tired already and wanna wait for dear to call me,so dun wanna go out anymore..bt then whn dear called,we quarrelled agn,made me so sad nia..sUm stuff nt to mentioned here..bt felt really hurt by some words he said to me..was even more upset when dear accused me of not wearin his ring.i did nt purposely dun wear the two beautiful rings he gave,bt because i love the ring too mch,i don wan to get it dirty and ruined marh,so i took it off when i'm washin my face on sat before i went out meet him..bt after washin my face left the toilet 4gettin 2wear the rings baQ and he thought some other way when it's all an misunderstandin..=((

haiss..really sad nw..wanna sleep early later..nw was talkin with my fung fung bro=P

Wan the song AI Wo Bie ZoU bY jay Chow,simply meaningful ans suits my mood today,tee hees.anyOne got that song Can send me?!?!

2005-09-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

was ultra bored in mornin today leh,woke up earlier then usual..actually supposed go out meet mandy at shop leh,but last minute canceled due to her unwell feeling so got sick leave..nw just sittin in front of the comp waitin time to pass nehxx..

slept early lasnyt,was really tired,but then keep on wakin up..dunno why.think so i've woke up like..5-6 tyms?haiss..and got headache agn=s

woke up eat mommy's tapau laO shu Fun,then hor,dunno eat wrong o what..till now i got tummyache whole day..add on to my headache = not feeling well at all =s

this taken last week leh...at shop =P

this taken last sat in makong welcome baq dinner worh=P

slack the whole noon,quarreled with mommy agn..she said alot of mean and hurtful things to me le..so mad i talk baq like wat..intendin to do as she says me..made her eat the hurtful words she say to her own daughther..hmpff..=<

nyt is alot more beta.took my mind of thingies..dunno for what hell..i bath 2 tyms within one hr=P took my sweet tym bathin and gettin ready too.makong came to pick me then pick xae li..woots.lil girl who used to run ard in pigtails and playin with me in tuiton nw grow up liao leh=D so ker ai liaO..hahasss..

den along with marcus and willy went to zuki cafe eat le.Also dunno what for wanna go so far eat=s then we go amy hse nia..miss my dar dar so so mch!!=P have'nt seen her for like...SO MANY MONTHS!!she stil look the same tho..ahahass..me,benny,makong,emma,amy jus sit there talkin nia..makong did sum catchin up's with da girls.. =))

ard 9 45pm hor,choi choi,ivan,willy all came also to visit amy and emma worhhxx..choi tried to persuade three of ur girls out..so in the end,go moi nam awhile lorhss,saw tiff and vicky le..hehess..have'nt seen tiff so long liaOh arhhss..

we all just ordered drinks nehxx..and sit der..see makong eat cheesecake made me VERY jealous,i wanna eat too ma!!!!bt no one treat me=(( in da end..jus watch him savour the delicious cake=((

willy is doin a video on his cam nia,we all keep evade here and there..den hor,when i'm nt realising,ivan took a pic of me in monkey image..look vry lui siaa..wanna die le..so u-g-l-y ..ehehe...

then go home lorhh..actually wanna go to sleep liao de..who knows,sumone forwarded me a few obsense msgs,she sed d msg cum frm under my name worhh..cuz under my name gt a few ppl no. marr..mommy...dear etc..so vry mad sia.. got this kinda msgs..made me whole nyt tossin oni. .

another also cuz mie vry fan le..vry vry fan..thinkin of it mades me go mailto:^*&%$@!&*# actually wanna blogged abt it in other blog leh,bt was deleted so cnot blogged liao..nvm larh..blogged for what?rmb so mch things make me pain oni sia..beta dun reread agn =)

btw o..

HAPPY BDAY TO HUI YI!!!!!!!<333 MuAcKkKksss!

actually was missin dear alot nehxx,bt since he got new life new change in life he pretends i don't exists anymore..pretend me nt there le..vry hurtful one you know?to be treated this way by the one you love?bt missin dear vry mh le..do you miss me o nt ler..dearr..

2005-09-10T06:21:00.000-07:00

hrm,was pretty sleepy ryt nw,spend de whole day with my dearr,woke up ard 8 30am and 9am already fly out meet dear..hahass.nvm larhss,spend sum quality tym marhs ryt=))

went out to have lunch at err..smwher smwher,a food place near da office,dun rmb the name tho..kim something..had pork chop rice and dear had "sao rou" rice,i think..went baq to de office and spend quality tym der just da two of us=P

haiss,sang xing arh!!got alot of those msgs frm friend..de one ler,ask u type " zapp reg " and said you may save cr blar blar blar,in de end hor,i lkost about $4 cr..really kns to the maX!!!so beh song,face also become so black liao,dear just ask me went to town and he bought a new recharge for me *weeets* so sweet of him nehhxx=D muaks muaks <33 you.. then company him buy nokia battery for his mom's mob.

dropped by the bkstore,and dear bought ice capucino,today's ice capucino kinda nice lehx,vry sweet,bt i got tummy ache ltr =s saw peh shan and lih fui nehx!!so long tym no see them liaohss,lih fui had straighthen her hair worhss,lookin quite nice leh=))

sept female mag's is out!!!!!gonna ham my dad buy for me soon..weeess..anywaes,after buyin the capucino,we went to the stalls and bought satays and went baq to the office and eat it there..kekess.bt hor..2day's beef satay nt as nice as last tym de..dunno why..

then ard 5pm,we went home 2gtr..before that,dear bought me sum chi pi ku!!hahahass!!my beloved chi pi ku arhh!!loving chi pi ku more then i love my dear=P HAHAHASS!!

hrm...2mr gonna go out meet my dearrrrrr fweeennn mannnnndddyyyy chooooonnngggg ..cuz she's workin alone nia,ask me company so thought of goin lorh..hahahss..gonna laff her loud loud =P

2005-09-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

Playin with my bro's ps the whole day,intendin nt to remember those hurtful things dearr said to me..like i'm nth,add on to his blog too!it's so obviously he resented me so mch,tmd..

really si beh tu lan whole day,till to da point of screamin my whole damm frustrations and pains in my other blog,bt i'm gonna del the bloggie soon,who knows who accidentally stumbled across it,really embrassing to vent out in innermost feelings,lyk..DoHHhhhh !

so frustrated till the point i wanna chopped of my hair agn!i simply don't know why i felt like having the NEED to chopped of my hair when i'm nt feeling good,luckily my dear bessie talked me outta it..if nt..vry syng,grow so long ord yet i chopped it off.. booohz..

wad talkin to my fung fung..hahass,gave him a new nickname liaohz,told him that i dreamt i went to SPA with him,along wif ah wei,hell knows how i got that dream,and he practically gagged!!Haiss,since i'm havin my hols nw,he asked me go overnyt at his home worhs,and ah wei will bring me baq,nt a bad option actually..since i got lyk NTH TO DO at home,and my dear's left me,so i thought,why not?tee hee...bt gonna see my plannin first..if o,den go,since i already have the green light frm dad so it aint a problem!!!

2005-09-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

03-makong is baq in brunei!!!have'nt seen him for like..so so so many months.went to two parties actually..firstly,stella's bitrthday with the group..stella,me,jason,louey,khew,best of all?stella is richard's love,and he treated the whole party for stella's bday..aint it sweet?it reminds me of the party louey gave his gal izati=)) at ard 9pm,makong came to pick me up,along with some others,and headed to ming fang had a gatherin dinner.people present-choi choi,benny,gary aka boiboii,marcus,adrain,reggie,yee soon,sheau yea,vicky,van van,ah may,and yours truly of course..tee hee!the food was darn nice!!!!!!took a few pics too..will post it up when i got it from reggie=)

04-went to church early mornin,went to mandy's shop and waited for dearr,headed kb together and hab our breakfast..shopped ard..go to seria agn and hang out the whole noon at shop..kinda fun=)

05-schooled and spent the noon with dearr..

06-schooled and homed

07-schooled,hab lunch with dear at kfc..saw long-time-no-see friend vera yee,she still looked the same to me=p and spent the noon with dear..

08-Day was pissed!!could'nt believe what i saw and heard..was pissed in daylight,now was pissed to the max!between his overly friendy manner and free advertising here and there..i'm still his "passerby-vege" even our relation had been so long..when one knows about this,would you feel GOOD?EXACTLY!!!!!

2005-08-28T16:08:00.000-07:00

I was being LIED..took for GRANTED..and treated like a FOOL !!!!!

2005-08-27T22:22:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time,there wasd once where all feelings lived :

happiness,sorrow,knowledge etc,including love.One day it was announced to all the feelings that the island would sink.

So all repaired their own boats and left.Love was the only one who stayed.Love wants to presevere untill the last moment possible.When the island is almost sinking,Love decices to asked for help.

richness was passing by in a great boat.Love said"Richness,an you take me with you?" Richness answered "no,i can't.there are alot of gold and silver here in my boat,there is no place for you"

Love decides to ask vanity who was passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity,please help me!" "I can't help you love.you are all wet and might damage my boat!" Vanity answered.

Sorrow was closed by so asked for help,"Sorrow,please let me go with you" but Sorrow answered, "Oh...Love,i am so sad that i need to be myself!" Happiness passed by Love too,but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!!!

Suddenly,there was a voice, "come Love,i will take you" It was an elder.Love feel so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgets to ask the elder her name.

When they arrive at dry land,Love asked another elder,knowledge.."who helped me?"

"It was time"knowledge answered.

"Time?' asked Love."but why did time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "because time is capable of understanding how great love is"

Love is a wonderful feeling and most of us are either in love or secretly admire somebody.but there is one thing about love.It needs time to grow,to mature and to last forever.time teaches many things and heals many scars..

hrm..find it meaningful??i do..and i hope my dear friend mandy thinks so too =)) and hopefully can help her..

2005-08-26T16:40:00.000-07:00

eye sore.was in front of the computer for a long time.the weather is lovely for stayin at home.lol~

hrm,a meaningful song is uploaded!!!finally..i get the Right codes for the song..all thanks to kyrie lemme use his program=D and vonnie too..teachin me sum stuff..kekesss..neways von,i still wan the program aitess?

learn to do the moving pics too!!!=D *super happy* wanna learn that for quite awhile,and nw i suceed!!!so so happy..weets..bt den..this i've learned myself,not any help frm kyrie or vonnie..applaud for me yeah..hahass!!

but anywaes,those pics are just for "testing"..it's gonna be there for awhile tho,untill i've sort out evrything and i'lll change all the pics =))

2005-08-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

so so tired today=s well,everyday i also will be overtired anyways,wonder if i dun eat enough food for energy,bt den,it seems i eat more and more also?lol~

sch is aiight as usual,today me and julre vry obedient pretend pretend copy notes on the ohp,lol~ ans witness another fight at sch agn,it's already the second fight in thre last 6months..haiss..malay sch,wat cn you do?at least it's nt girls catfight like last tym..hahasss..

todae...HAPPY 13MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND DEAR...hehess..another month passed agn,bt i sure wonder how long it gonna last..won't forever this is for sure=s

hrm,suddenly rmb something last nyt,after havin my dinner,spend the whole 3hours chattin with ah fung(my cuz)..we're talkin alot about alot of stuff,and suddenly talked abt how he could'nt recognise me last yr in the shoppin mall..he ask me show some of my pics,show lorh,and i send him one pic,and he was dumbfound!he had no idea btw me and amy,which is me!!!!this kinda family also got hor..sia soi one..hahass..so newayss,he ALMOST got to the point of askin his mommy which is me,till he recognise for himself..den i tell him..

me : fung arh,u take de pic to ee gv her see now..see what she said..
fung : ok..u wait ahh..i call mommy..

awhile later........

fung : WAHHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fung : xin,mommy had no idea who are you!!!!!she asked why i had pretty girls in my pc!!WAHHAHAAA...
me : u go tell ee i'm ur gal gal..see what she say?

awhile later......

fung : xinn...sei 4 lor,mommy keep askin me abt you..i asked her see clearly the pic agn..she keep askin!!my tears really wanna fall frm laughin liao..too bad ah wei nt at home,see mommy's expression!!!
me : wua lan,ee gt so dumbfound o nt orh..*and cnt help laffin hard myself*
fung : u say leh?mommy's face practically blank liao!!!

wua lann..then i go tel my mommy the story maa..in the end,my aunt and mommy CHAT instead of me and fung..-_-" hahass,hrm,that reminds me,hui yi gonna be here for the dec hols,ah wei mayb gonna be here too!!if he's nt goin travellin with his friends,we're discussin a nite in empire *winksss*

just went for dinner at ayamku restaurent with my family just now..sea cucumber claypot is definitely superb!!!dunno when cn i have it agn..=s

hrm..guess 1mr me just gonna slack at home,since dear aint well so he wont come out see me..hrm..missin him ord..kekesss

2005-08-24T19:00:00.000-07:00

im tired and definitely sleepy=s sch went on as usual ..guess wut?me and julre got scolded for talkin agn..miss suzy was lyk "ok grace and julre..apparently what you're talkin there is more interesting than what i'm teachin..since what you two wre talkin are more appealin than listenin to my class..would you like to share it with us?we're waitin.." oh shiat..we just kept quiet..bt felt like tellin her..if she really wanna noe what the hell is so interestin..bet when she heard it..she wont think that way!and den ..after awhile..we talked awhile ONI nia,she insulted us "grace and julre,a PRE-U2 student wanna join our PRE-U1 class and jottin down the notes on the ohp,and two of you are acting like you dun hv the care at allin the world.." wua lan..so embrassing man!!sheesshh..

went out with dearr after sch,went to marilyn to have lasagnass,have been cravin for lasagnas quite a while nw,and finally i cn have it..lol~and went back to office and hang out*winks*

newayss..gonna dinner..tata!

2005-08-23T20:18:00.000-07:00

went out find mandy at3pm in the end.i just don't feel like being alone,and think of the things which cause me pain..but i never knew,mandy is havin a even harder time than me..she practically looks like she's about to cry from the moment i saw her and the moment i go home=((

went to cosy corner,where it's quiet,air-conditioned,and hav alot of privacy.spilled out her sob story,i really felt so sad for her.i'm having alot of problems myself,but my problems could'nt relate to what someone did to her.comfort her..givin her advices and consolin her as much as i can.

after one hour plus of talkin,and eatin TWO plates of french fries=s we dedice to leave.shopped ard..actually..it's more like i'm walkin ard lookin at things while she's followin me only=s saw some nice clothes and nice stuff toys norhxx=))

she decided to pop into her workin place early..and sat ther for hours and help her work when she's busy...Wees..den ard evenin went home with dad nia...

i'm feelin more better today,at least my mind is off about smth else!but for my dear friend..i'm not so sure..i just hope she could have a good nyt sleep tonyt and quit blamin herself for everything.

2005-08-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

cried a damm lot last nyt,my tears could probaly filled up a pool=s another huge quarrel with dear,almost break up agn,bt luckily we went thru it..bt what happened last nyt,what he had said to me..cause a permanent scar in my heart.end of story.

like that is'nt enough,quarreled with my mom the same tym too!was shoutin at each other so loud,till dad woke up from his nap and in the end,i got the blame!why do i always have to be blamed for everythin i've not done wrong?!?!WHY..

did'nt go to sch today,was too tired from lastnyt,stayed at home and be a pig.mom was even more pissed,but then..who cares anymore?actually wanna go find mandy in the noon..at 12 liddat,bt i slept till 1pm,miss my transport liao..so in d end no go..i could use bus if i wan..but the weather looks rainy..

now it's just 1pm..haiss..dunno how to spend my day today =X

2005-08-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

Jiu suan wo shi duo me de ai ni,

wei ni er fu chu zai duo zai duo,

ke shi,wo xin li hen ming bai..

ni yi yang bu huei jia bei ni dui wo de ai,

wo dui ni lai suo..

ye zhi bu guo ru chi er yi..

really felt disspointed..after all this days of quarrels with dear,i thought he would miss me and would wanna see me.but i'm wrong.due to some reasons our date together had been cancelled..i always thought i'm only thinkin too mch..abt how little importance i am to him..for he always have reasons for me to come second or last..but today the deep truth bore right into my heart.end of story.

a few days ago..when a friend come over..suddenly the topic changed to boys.my boy..to be preise..she was askin me.."grace ah,the "yang yang" and "raven" friendster acc is your boy's right? i just answered "yeaps" den agn she ask " you two not together meh?why is his friendster status is SINGLE?" i was shocked,dun wanna show the hurt which starts to appear..i just answered "status onimarh,nth one la" agn she continued "but you two have been together over a year nw,dun you think he should be honest about you two relation?" this time..i'm really..speechless!!! i just kept quiet and let my heart to rain..den i think to myself.. why... yea...WHY a gd question!

2005-08-21T15:39:00.000-07:00

hrm,it seems i'm startin to blog in here less and less..there aint nth mch to blog neways..other den at sch at home..that's my life liao=s so lame hor..no more social life..geess-_-" it's ok larh,at least got to rest at home..kekesss..

As yOu cn see..i've changed my blogskin!!nice tak?lawa tak?KYRIEEE...LAWA KAN?!?!?!at least 1000times more than yOurs,hmpf!took the whole darn day to set this up "nicely" sumhow,the codes always seems to get wrong and i had to re-do it many times=(( n yet ..STILL..have'nt finished up decoratin *eye sore*

wuaa..kyrie let me see an article this mornin..guess wut?the sultan remarried arh!!!it's a closed ceremony..private wife?lol~ when i read the article..i was so..*shocked* ? hw old already orh...wua lan ehz..as he likes la..he got "richness" ..sure any young ladies wanna go with him nia..hahass..

so so tired todae..woke up early and go to church with my mom..the service is aiight..miss my childhood friends..suk hong and elvis so mch!!had forgotten how we used to play when we're young and did'nt see them for like..one yr pluss??did alot of catchin up =))

vry annoying arh,1st jackass(not enclosin any names in here cuz he's sch ppl) was lyk..tryin to hit on me..sayin bunch of annoying things..

Him:why you on9 dun chat with me?
Me:oppss..busy with stuff din c u on9 ma..(purposely one)
Him:miss me?
Me:no orh..what for?
Him:i miss you mah..open ur webcam give me see!!i'm beggin u..lemme c ur pretty face..
Me:wua..NO!i told you i dun open my webcam 4 anyone,nt even my own boy..u count as what ler?besides..me gotta go soon lorh,wanna go bandar with my friends ....(must tipu tipu ma...so to get him off)
Him:issit..den u must look vry pretty nw..let me c awhile..pls pls pls..
(i was lyk..wtf..!?!?!stil cnt get d hint issit?sial)
Me:no..i have'nt got ready yet..
Him:arghhh!!!!!!i cnot wait for my silvia!!so i cn bring u ard!!
Him:pls agn pls..just lemma c u 4 awhile...jus 5 minutes u do...
(askin agn...for lyk..the zillionth tym!)
Me:i say lor..NO !!who are you to me..?
Him:I'm You slave..and besides..i help you alot..
(nth else just ask him dl music -_-" made it lyk ..BIG HELP liddat..sial)
Me:just cuz u help me alot dun mean i had to sell myself for u...
(changin the topic....)
Me:hrm...i wonder what i wanna buy ltr in bandar..
Him:u got money meh? (sial..look down on me harr?)
Me:got..dad gv me $100..bah ..i wana go nw..bye
(STILL dun wana give up...)
Him:when u home..sure u still vry pretty..wen reach home show me webcam k!!!
Me:hrm..c 1st lor..i go home very late..lyk..later den midnyt..i say ord..i dun open my webcam for anyone..
Him:nvm maa..just you and me lor..!!i will just be ur scandal..
Me:bye..

Geezz..what the hells he want ohh.."i be ur scandal" this part..he want also no one wants la!!!sialness to the max!

den the 2nd jackass.. another one..

Him:Hi..
Me:Hii..
Him:remember me??
Me:no..(i do..guys hv smth call EGOS so let it hurt=P)
Him:liddat 1 la..dun remember me..
Me:sorry..who youu..?
Him:edward bahh...lastym i tuiton with u 1 le..
Me:oh ya..remember liao..hw r u..
Him:me gd..y no go out?
Me:lazy la
Him:girls alweays liddat 1 ..continiun...
Hi:stayin at home too much not good for you ..you know?

whta's wrong with guys nowadays huhh?why are the so thick faced..frm the start already hint for you to bug off..yet u said all this nuisance to piss me off..everyone seems to piss me off today..

sheeshh..

2005-08-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

This story is based on true feelings not true technology..

I couldn’t remember where I am at that moment. I woke up to see the rain pouring down the sky and I stood by the window watching the rain.. it falls so slowly down the glass … I touched it.. it was cold so damn cold.. just like my heart.. then something copied the rain and fell. .. when I wiped my face there were my tears.. why do I feel so empty inside? The guy I love.. oh yeah him… I picked up our picture together and there we were by the waterfall, smiling and hugging each other .. . those wonderful memories.. he’s been really busy I told myself.. but who am I lying? I told myself that night after night and I got used to the excuses..I know it’s been only a few days we didn’t see each other but can’t he at least give a short call?

I can’t say I’m not disappointed for what has happen but who am I to control his life? I’m just another lady in his life. .well I thought I was an important one until lately.. I slowly wiped away my tears .. hey I’m at least happy to have him in my life right? Well yeah I do love him so much.. I smiled a little .. why don’t I call him first? But I don’t wanna look so clingy.. I bit my nails.. I usually do that when I get lonely .. well now it’s a great time to do that.

Sigh. .what am I to ? just a few days ago, he came to me and held me in his arms and he kissed me right on the lips .. he kept telling me how happy he is and how much he loves me.. all of my doubts and fears flew out of the window … I feel so blessed.. I feel loved.. but when he went off, my heart went with him and then images of him cheating on me flashes thru.. maybe that’s why he was so busy.. no, I trust my man.. more than I trust anyone else .. I love him more than anyone else

So here I wait till he comes back to me so I can smile and talk to him once again .. when I can whisper in his ear telling him how much I miss him, telling him how much he meant to me, how different he is from my ex boyfriend, how much I love him but I simply couldn’t bear the thought of telling him that I feel neglected… and abandoned.. and used.. but I guess I couldn’t hate him or love him because I love him. Here I lie waiting and craving for the day he’ll come back to me and not knowing of the tears I have cried since he been busy for the past days.. when he would hold me in his arms again.. then I’ll have my moment of happiness till he goes away and my petals will drop like the flowers and I’ll be dead till the day he finds time for me again.. cause I love him.. he makes me happy even for just a while ..

touchin ryt..?sum of it really reflects my real life..well SOME oni..dunm go guessin ard..lol

2005-08-20T14:46:00.000-07:00

I nOw nO LoNgeR FeeL ThE HurT And PaIn,

INSTEAD.......

Angerness fills me up instead!

2005-08-18T18:17:00.000-07:00

FcUked Up # -is to describe me recently.why do i have to cope with the difficulties of life?i've been coping with it since the past years,but why does'nt it make me stronger?why does each times i still could'nt stop crying everyday?i wished with all my might..that i can rewind to the past 4 years..the everyday cheerry mood,the never frowning happy face,the im-totally-contented-and-happy with my life attitude,the worryfree me..bUt since the last two yeaRs,i've encountered countless breakdowns..WorSt,this year,the breakdowns n tears never seems to end.If tears could be stored,then my house could have an in build small swimmin pool liao =s

Wary # best word described todae,wan enjoyin my sleep so mch,but today hv to start goin to sch=s was schocked hw many peOple ask me abt my sickness,even vicky also know..wua lan,gossips sure travel fast,a solid proof! bt sch was okay anywaes..geog teacher treat the whole class pizza huts *thumbs up*

2005-08-15T19:09:00.000-07:00

homed!!!=)) lyk..finally!!the comfort in my home and bedroom sure win the hospital bed 100times..kekess. Was sent to emergency ward nia ytd evening,had ventilasation and a ecg scan,found out that smth is wrong,unusual to be exact..at my heart..and was hospitalised immediately=((

the foods there sure sucks!!!cud'nt even eat the breakfast,dad bought me breakfast nia,so happy cn eat mee stall mee=P thO hospitalised for two days,got more than 3 ecg scans and five injections,haiss..cn imagine the blood i lost lorhs!!nt only that,before i'm discharged,had to pulled out a 2inch long needle injection frm my hand which cause alot of blood flow..my hand was covered in blood nia!!!=s so yucky..

hehess..dear gt cum pei me in d afternoon..bought me soy milk oso *weets* pk also got come lorh,at least gt ppl company me,if nt..sure will bored till pengsan de lorh!!kekess!!

anywaes,till here for nw lor,vry sleepy..still!!!!wanna rest abit..gdnyt..mauckies

2005-08-14T13:32:00.000-07:00

SiCk heavily nia..

Felt so haRd to breathe..=((

=taken on the 2nd floor=

=taken just outside the canteen

2005-08-13T19:02:00.000-07:00

here am i officially baQ to blogged=)) haven't been bloggin for quite awhile nia,all thanks to my dad=s day is aiight=P sch went on as usual lor..of course..

i got 4marks for my biz test ah!!xiao that kyrie gt 14 and julre gt 11!!!!it's so so so so unfair,when me and julre promised each other nt to study!!!nvm larh,i'm gonna beat their ass at d end yr xM..look out kyrieee!!!!!!!!!=)) dun 4get..i owe me a meal..kekesss!!! =))

saw kok how!!!he's baQ frm Sig marh,and he come to our sch with natul n suk tzen..he dun change abit anywaes,de same old him=s bt we all ex-sms hv fun and snap sum pics..will post it up when i gt those pics..wee!

got a suprised msG frm my dear mandy today!!!a big CONGRATS to mandy arh,for finally landing a job *wink* do properly la kayss?dun steal snake too mch nia..kekess..msged with her a few,i miss her so darn mch!!! it's been more than 2 weeks i hvn't did any catchin up with her..hope to meet up with her soon!!

after sch,took a bath,dried my hair,and went out to meet dearr,felt esp happy when meetin him 2dae..tho only for few hrs,v had quite a row last nyt nia=(( no worries..all gd..spend our sweet tym at da roof,n evening went to tamu 2gtr and bought bbQ chi pi ku and drink coconut waters before goin home..bt the cempedak dearr bought so smelly 1..yuckkk..dunno wat's so nice abt it=s

i guess nth mch happened da past week,hrm..guess wut!?!!i finally gt chance to taste mum's bakery bread last wed ahh!!!=(( hw many time i go also nth lef in da shop..business toO gd liao..last wed,few days ago went with dearr..bought chillihotdogs,butter breads,hotdogs with the urm..chicken tingie u spread on top?wadeva u called it la..blueberry cheese cake and chocolate fudge cake..cost $10+++ nia!!so exp..wonder dear heart gt rain o nt..=P LOL !!

k lahhsss,till here for nw..eyes cnt open liao lorh..so sleepy=s nytnYts,mauckies (",)

2005-08-12T21:28:00.000-07:00

I'm In rage..I'm in So mUch Rage..

My heArt Felt LiKe It's On fiRe..

bUt yEt It's RaininG insiDe..

Do yOu KnoW What I'm TrYIn To Say?

PlEasee..PleaSe..

TeaCh mE wHat i Cn dO..

Teach Me How To dO.

I LoVe You so mUch..Yet toO Much..

AnD there's NoOne BuT yOu..

Who Can makE me Better..

2005-08-08T15:30:00.000-07:00

Dee Aa Eer Is Shoo Shoo SO stupiak >.<

2005-08-04T13:03:00.000-07:00

Haass,skipped sch 2dae,well..did attend one class only nia..n skipped the rest=P get to rest at home,a sorta happy convo with dearr on the phone..it's all gd=))

anywaesss,here are some pics taken recently.. took a few hours tryin to get the codings ryt for a nice fade-in slideshow effect,bt dunno why,it failed=(( so guess nw hv to repost this one by one..boo..=((

AuG 1 - taken at yun's hse at night=))

Actually..there's still alot more=s just havent get it..waitinfor her bro to send to me..weeheess.. heess..nice marhh? that's it..lazy to post so mch liao..kekess..

2005-08-03T21:26:00.000-07:00

was so sleepy nw..tho it's oni 9++ pm!!=s yun's visit in brunei really wore me out.but it's nice=)) get to hang out with her,and at the same tym,take my mind of my problems..hehess

sch was aiight,went home early at 11 20am and took a quick shower,bt when i come out of my shower,yun's ord in my room diggin.lol~ talk awhile,play awhile,watched movie together awhile,snap some pics and went out for lunch.

went to pagolak and have our lunches there,2meats and 1soup,so so so nice!!=)) and i've kinda eat alot when she's back too!bet i'm abit more meaty now..teeheess.

after our lunch,we decided to go to the new bread store,it's been the second tym i've been there..bt two times two times all breads finished!!!!=s all we get to see is empty trayss!!

went to the saloon and have our hair trimed..mine's cut so short norh,at least two inches also gone liao=s and then decided to plucked our eyebrows together too!!hahasss..

meet up van van,and headed to marilyn and get ice creams sundaes,seriously...it's not nice at all=s all melting..but we finished it anywaes and then start having stomachache..boo hoo!!!

went home,rest..and have dinner with the whole family,with yun of course..mom even cook lamb chop especially for her..ahahasss.special treatment larhh=P

newayss..gotta drop off to sleep now..if not..tomorrow lyk zombie nia..wil post those pics up vry soon..when i got tym!!!!!! nytttsss..